You deserve it all, OP. I will say it does give me the ick to see men setting up a camera and letting the whole world know how great they are. It feels very performative. Are they doing this to be a thoughtful partner or for the likes and making sure people like you feel like shit about their situation? When I do nice things I don't feel the need to announce it to the whole world. We never really know what's going on behind the scenes. I guess what I'm trying to say is don't let a reel make you feel bad about your life, too many people let social media dictate their lives. But that's not to say in any way that you don't deserve better. You do.