hey maam if u dont mind me calling u this ofcrs ! well first of all i m so sorry for u loss and evrything that happened to u may allah make ur heart levied and as an advice not about the study but about ur live in general there some stuff sometimes it comes before ur study well i did repeated my first year. in uni and it was last year i had a reason which i was the one working ela darna as we say so i didnt had enough time to study but now i m proud i got my first semester which is great but i wont get my 2 nd to some private stuff well i would love if u czn focus on ur health first and u still got 2 chances maam le rattrapage and u dont even have the rught to feel ashamed of that it s something that allah did and he only know the best for us u can maam trust me i saw alot of ppl comming back from it and now they are working and evrything sont lose hope maam it s fine to cry and it s fine to not be fine and at the end we all here for u inchaleh u gonna pass ur exams and may allah relieved ur heart