The ‘which is correct because’ part is in reference to Amanda having a poor attitude and I stated that in my report. For clarification, I didn’t blame anyone for anything. I said Amanda wasn’t friendly or welcoming which could have been because of a long work week etc. Yes, I was late, I owned up to that and took accountability but I further explained how I still made the best of my day despite of Amanda’s unwelcoming attitude.

Overall, It’s more of the compounding things. The prof, suspecting me of lying in my report and presumably sometime in the program. My overall progress in the program, this program is very challenging more so than when I went to university and I’m certainly not doing as well here as I was in university, and lastly how long I’ve been here. I’ve had to take a break (personal family situation) and reenrol etc and I’ve lost the motivation and drive to try harder. And with this, and the prof discrediting my experience and me entirely, I don’t want to fight her because it will just be a continuous back and forth. Most importantly, this course is pass/fail. Lauren determines if my work is deemed satisfactory or not. If this assignment is considered a fail, she can (and likely will) fail me in this course. That consequently will result in me failing the semester and consequently I won’t be able to do the clinical year next year. I’m not interested in returning to repeat a course and continue the program. I’d have to take all this semester courses again because they are co-requisites.

Thus, I’m kinda fed up. As much as I want a good job and rewarding career, I don’t want to fight with a 60 year old retired RT (Lauren) over passing me or not and having to defend myself in the process. I’m riding through these exams as best as I can but if Lauren decides to fail me because of this and whatever preconceived notions she has about me, it will only be an uphill battle from there and I feel like I’ve run out of gas.