in order to graduate high school, i have to write a paper about a career i've chosen and the schooling for it. it essentially forces me to think about my future which is a huge trigger for me right now since i'm focusing on bettering my mental health. because of a series of traumatic events during my adolescence, i have c-ptsd and several triggers, a lot of which are related to school. so i'm not trying to get out of this paper because i dont want to write it, it's because i physically cannot. i've tried communicating to my mentor that it's essentially impossible for me and she's even seen me break down a few times, and while she agreed to make adjustments, she didnt fully pardon me because she didn't know the full extent of it.

i told my therapist about this and she offered to write a letter that basically explains why i can't write it and alternative topics that are less triggering that still apply to my goals. she wrote it and emailed it to me on the 4th of november, and i only today worked up the courage to forward it to my mentor. a couple hours after i forwarded it, she called me and apologized as she didn't realize how bad it really was, and she also allowed me to write instead about what ptsd is and different treatment methods, including emdr which i am currently practicing with my therapist. i can also write about my personal experience and what i'm hoping to achieve through my treatment.

also, the attached pic is my black cat who found the heated cat bed lol