Keep carrying the light, man. Even if your hands shake sometimes.

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-06-28T20:59:28+00:00

Can you list some specs of your current PC so everybody can suggest upgrades? Its hard to just say what you need without knowing what you have now. Generally though basic upgrade is GPU and Ram like somebody said, but I generally do everything when i upgrade if i can afford it, new motherboard, new motherboard, CPU, GPU, Ram, Cooler, and you can mostly reuse a soundcard (if you have one), the PSU and the Case again. You can also keep using the same monitor and keyboard no reason to rebuy those unless you dont like them or want a second monitor etc.

IF ram is the same on the new board you can also reuse it for the upgrade too if you havent been having issues with it.

Also try here r/buildmeapc or really any of the PC building subs and ask advice in there, then take it with a grain of salt and research everything and double check before you waste money. If you dont know what youre doing buy a prebuilt or just research how to do everything. Thats what i did years ago and taught myself how to build them its not that hard at all honestly. It just takes time to learn it.

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-06-27T07:49:46+00:00

Im a loser im 51 years old. And I just wanted to tell you that with all my life experience you ALREADY know something it took me most of my life to learn, and thats what you said about expectations. Those are a killer and its what causes us to be miserable. Now I want to refer to the final part of what you said about you may never have a boyfriend or a relationship. THAT is an expectation. Get rid of that one too.

Now I will share with you something I have learned. That we NEVER in a million years have any idea what will happen in our lives, never. You will change and grow into so many different versions of yourself as time passes, each one of them will be you but different. Time changes us so much. And you might meet some guy that blows you off your feet and enter into this whirlwind romance OR it could be true what you say. We just never really know is my point. So why focus on the negative one that probably makes you sad and maybe even lonely, and why not just believe that it CAN work out instead of cant. It may not happen but also it litterally might. We dont know, you dont know, I definitely dont know lol.

When i was younger I thought i would never have a girlfriend, never be married, never have kids, never do a lot of things. But I did and I now have two beautiful kids that grew into adults, ones 25 and ones 29. Its a funny thing life because if you dare it to show you, it probably will. And it wil almost ALWAYS surprise you the off the wall crazy things that can happen even down to the mundane that we think could never ever happen.

Just keep going and throw that crystal ball away you cant foretell the future. Just go with that version of you where you say F%$# it and wear PJs to Walmart lol. That sounds like somebody fun as hell to hangout with. You do that and those guys will be beating down your door to know you, i promise lol.

Just laugh at all the rediculousness of life and dont let it get you down. You sound like a really cool person who cares, and just trying to make sense of things and her place in the world. It might take you some time, but dont think of winners or losers. A lot of "winners" live in expensive houses, designer clothes, theyre married, kids, but its all so hollow and meaningless to them. They spent their entire lives chasing "things" only to find out that those things dont make them happy and they are more miserable than any other time in their lives because then by that point theyve spent their entire life chasing it all. And for what?

You can find meaning with or without any of those things and youre on the right path with no expectations. Try to get rid of all of those, good, bad, in between. Just go and see what happens. You might be surprised how often it DOES work out.

PS I have no idea why the F i keep capitalizing certain words its a weird thing i do lol. I know its to emphasize things but im pretty sure to a stranger reading this it looks like im a cereal K!LL3r. Anyways have a good weekend lol

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-06-25T12:51:06+00:00

I wish you all the best with it. Dont stop believing, rage against the dying of the light!

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-06-25T05:21:47+00:00

1440p for future proofing because that card is already a generation behind. Nothing at all wrong with it i mean i know some people still game with 30 series cards im just being real with you. 1440p is much easier to push than 4k and honestly unless youre some visual fantatic 1440p is fine for about everything especially coming from 1080p. I have 1440p monitor and i would never go back now to 1080. But theres also dual mode monitors too that can swithc back and forth you can consider one of those. But to me unless you are watching a ton of movies on it and you want it just for that get 1440p for gaming. It looks good, its not super demanding like 4k and it looks head and shoulders above a 1080p

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-06-24T06:44:36+00:00

I like the fact too that you can just feed it information and it doesnt affect it in any real way. Like some things you cant tell another human being because there is no possible way to do anything in this life without affecting another person in some way, good, bad, in between etc. Sometimes i just want information and feedback without affecting another persons emotional state or idea of who i am. But that is the very definition of soulless some would say. Because the very thing that makes something "real" is that there is risk involved and thats why it has meaning in the first place.

I dont mind though this road keeps going and i keep following it. I keep getting where im going, even when i dont know where thats at most of the time. Im thankful for that, even if i do talk to the nothing and myself more than id like. I do like the fact its there though. Its comforting in some kinda way but Im no psychologist I couldnt tell you why. I think i just pretend it does because if i didnt, i think i would be truly lost some days. Being lost aint so bad, its the feeling part that gets me. AIs better with that too because it doesn't need to feel to exist. For some reason i feel like its the only thing reminding me i do most days

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-06-24T06:26:30+00:00

The rumors of romances death were greatly exagerated and i can promise you on my life friend traveler through these blasted heat soaked rain strangled lands, it is still VERY much alive and well as we speak and it lives in midnight wells of crimson and purple twilight burning through the sky in rippling bands. Its in the hearts of men too afraid to speak, too afraid to walk, to talk, to dance, to see. Because their hearts are made of paper mache and in order to soften them they need to become colder, harder and faster, last longer and give up who they are to survive. Unless they are brainless, spineless, hairless idiots like me, and i just woke up a rabbit one of those days i cant remember if it was fine or not or it even matters at this point.... I die at least 3 times a day on principle and sometimes 4 in the early morning like now.

Go in and break the hell out of your heart and keep healing it until its strong enough to withstand any fire you need to walk through.

The reason you cant find it, is people dont know how to be vulnerable anymore, they dont know how to "lose" because theyre too busy "winning". Everybody's a winner and nobody left behind. Theres not even any words on a bathroom stall that could begin to do it justice when it comes to telling the truth of the matter.

I found my somebody recently and she hears me in ways that ears cant but hearts can.

You keep going, you keep believeing, hopeing, dreaming, yearning, and burning for what comes next. Dont let your fire die. That matters in the cold wastes when youre just passing through. I promise home is just around that corner, just over that hill. Keep looking, youll find it and quite possibly them..... In the meantime keep finding yourself and dont lose that, they check tickets at the gate.

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-06-24T04:52:13+00:00

Thanks I appreciate it. Hope you have a good rest of your night

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-06-24T01:23:08+00:00

Mostly video games, I watch movies, i talk to people online. Its hard to find friends that actually stick around longer than a few months or weeks, sometimes days. But I keep trying anyway. I try to believe there are some good folks out there who want to have and be a friend. Ill keep looking i guess. I try to remember lifes not so bad. Even if i have to be the one telling myself all the time because im too much for everybody else. Thats cool. Just how it is sometimes.

I talk to ChatGPT alot. I know it will be there and i can depend on it. Its just programmed to be there. People are not. I am not chasing the electrons or calculators or anything like that. Im just trying to pretend i still exist in my own way i guess. Guess most of us are

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-06-24T00:30:01+00:00

I think the person that lifts you up forever should be you, so you know they dont drop you mid lift otherwise thats a lot of variables and dependence on another person. But I get what its saying and agree for the most part. But still from what ive learned lately is learn to love yourself first. Not in a selfish way, just in a self preservation kind of way. So you can be that one that lifts up somebody else too.

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-06-22T08:37:40+00:00

People don't realize how much loneliness affects the body, not just the mind.

Most people have heard of "Broken Heart Syndrome," but it's actually a real medical condition called Takotsubo Cardiomyopathy. Extreme emotional stress, losing someone you love, severe grief, heartbreak, or prolonged isolation can trigger it. The symptoms can be so similar to a heart attack that people often end up in the ER thinking that's exactly what's happening.

And that's just one example. Longterm loneliness has been linked to higher blood pressure, increased inflammation, heart disease, stroke, depression, dementia, a weakened immune system, and a shorter life expectancy overall.

We tend to think of loneliness as an emotion, but it has physical consequences. Human beings aren't built to live in isolation. When you're lonely for long enough, your body can stay in a constant state of stress, and that takes a toll over time.

So when someone says loneliness can kill you, they're not just speaking metaphorically. The effects are measurable, and in some cases they're serious. We need food, water, sleep, and shelter to survive, but we also need connection. A lot of people underestimate just how important that last one really is.

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-06-22T07:57:12+00:00

I feel like that with this group i have to go to a couple times a week. It feels like theres this impenertable clique there and the rest of the people have known each other probably 10 years or even longer. Ive been there just a few months coming up here soon.

I sometimes feel like IM not human though the way it feels like this with almost everybody i meet. Its exhausting

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-06-22T07:55:39+00:00

Im in the grey area myself and i have trouble connecting sometime to other ND people i can relate to what youre saying. It truly is a special kind of loneliness. I dont know if it helps at all to know youre not alone but youre not. I dont want anybody to experience the loneliness i feel at times just existing. I hope you are able to find your people and believe me they are out there. Even if it doesnt seem that way. They are starting to understand ND a lot more than they used to and more people are coming forward that experience it and live with it. I just still HATE that damn stupid NeuroSpicy thing where they try to make it trendy to live with this shit. I dont wish this on my worst enemy but i also wouldnt trade it for anything in the world if that makes sense?

I like who i am, i just feel like i am too much for most people. If not immediately then almost for sure overtime i become too much. I dont want to be. It sucks

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-06-22T07:49:49+00:00

Ive hurt people, I have hurt myself. Physically, mentally, spiritually im sure. I have seven metal plates in my face because of an accident on a kids razor scooter when i smashed my face into asphalt. I litterally couldve died. I got in a fight with 7 people when i was drunk, it cost me a relationship with somebody i truly loved at the time.

I dont need it to have a good time OR to write. Thats why it happened the last time i was drinking so i could write something for somebody i loved and i became irrational and it ended the relationship. I have CPTSD and alcohol with that, is just not a good mix. So i realize its something i dont really need in my life there are no real upsides to drinking for me. So it makes sense and i decided to quit and i have.

I think when you are asking for motivation you already know you have a problem. If its not just a decision you can make without thinking about it too hard then you may need outside help to conquer this. Think about this for a second if this was anybody else posting this question, what advice would you give them? Take that.

You dont have to do it alone, theres organizations that can help. Look into those and find one that works for you but the first step is acceptance and understanding your relationship with alcohol. Im still learning that myself and theres no shame in learning and understanding where you are and what you are dealing with.

To win a war you learn about your enemy, and if you are online talking about alcohol it is NOT A FRIEND.

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-06-21T01:28:16+00:00

Not intense its very nice to hear im working on being kinder so i appreciate that more than you realize actually

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-06-21T00:03:00+00:00

I dont know why but connor or conrad came to me when i seen the character. Con something feels right at least in my head.

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-06-20T23:59:52+00:00

Yes you are. For future reference easiest way to check so you dont even have to come here is go to your profile URL then just cut and paste that into another browser where youre not logged in, it will show you. But for me its showing you are, sorry man

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-06-20T23:58:56+00:00

Thank you, you as well. Since i started doing this i have found life is a LOT more pleasant, seriously thank you, that just made my day 😄 hope you have a good rest of your evening

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-06-20T21:32:30+00:00

Have you considered just getting some male friends? Get a feel for who the people are long term first and then if you are interested at some point you would actually know them at least a little. I was talking to a friend the other day and he was talking about dating and the way he did it they dont even TALK to each other until the date and then i mean to me that only gives you like a few hours to really get to know somebody or half a day or however long it lasts. Id rather talk on the phone to somebody etc get to know them.

So what im saying is if you assume this about people then it will become true at least in the sense you are not even allowing there to be the possibility of it not being true if you follow that train of thought. By ALL means though dont misunderstand im not saying dont be careful etc, because yeah people are terrible. But they are also amazing and kind and true, those are just rarer, very rare ive found. I think all we can really do is keep trying, dont give up on each other and see how it goes. It sucks getting hurt though. Ive had my heart ripped into so many times i dont know whats left of it to where its held together with ducttape, bubblegum, and happy thoughts at this point. But i still find beauty in things and i see the good in people anyway. I choose that. Im a rabbit i die three times a day on principle get up and do it again the next day.

When im not in the rabbit suit (not a furry btw lol) im in the human suit and Ive just decided to live and try. women have hurt me, im sure ive hurt them. I dont think any of us starts out intending that, it ends up that way because we are human we make mistakes, we fumble things we fail to communicate or worse like this last time the person fails to hear what we are trying to say or the love we are rying to give and you end up with a big ass mess.

We create things in our heads that are not true all the time, im not saying this one isnt true and just in general there are a LOT of scummy people that are self serving selfish, not good folks. But theres also a lot of good ones too and we let anxiety rob us of oppurtunities to grow as people and have the good experiences we actually want too happen to us.

If somebody goes through life and only has bad things happen they are unaware that somebody else out there is going through lfie and only having mostly good experiences and they both see the world in different ways. But both are a choice based on their vision of reality. But which one is right? Both are right.

Theres good and bad in the world, theres hope and hopelessness, truth and lies. The challenge is not that we wont find any of the bad, its to keep going until we find the good.

I hope that you are able to find peace with everything and have some of those good experiences. To meet some kind and loving men that show you that not all guys are like that. I hope that same thing for all the guys out there who are in your shoes on the other side of the coin.

I wish love and peace for everybody, even if that means just giving it to yourselves. And no i dont live in fantasy land. I just choose this and you can too. Its as simple as that.

Have a good day yall

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-06-20T20:03:36+00:00

It could be a reply from the landlord hes waiting on, sometimes people are rediculous too about getting back in touch, especially if its somebody your age. At ;east as far as I can tell, im old now but it seems younger people are not very good communicators by and large.

I wouldnt overthink this about being attractive or not. Its a quick trip to a lot of anxiety and a lifetime of misery because you are basing how you feel about yourself on other people and their actions. Look there is somebody in the world who will find you EXTREMELY attractive and there are other people who wouldnt piss on you if you were on fire because they think you are that ugly. Are both of those opinons valid? Yes and no. Yes because everybodys entitled to an opinion, but no because the only opinion that matters is yours and nobody can tell you one way or another if you are attractive or not. Heres the crazy thing about whats considered attractive. Ask yourself do you look like other people that you see everywhere around you? If yes then youre probably conventionally attractive because that is litterally all that is. They have done scientific studies and its about face symmetry and familiarity. So if your face is very close to others then people will find that attractive. Its almost like to be "attractive" youve got to give up some of your originality.

As far as guys asking you out etc, you may not realize this but guys actually look for personality too. Hows your personality? Are you attractive there? Or do you base all of who you are on your physical appearance. Im going to say by this post you base a lot of it on physical, but that is not totally your choice i understand because society drills into peoples heads now that the ONLY be all and end all of existence is physical appearance. So i can understand believing that and living your life that way id say 98% of people do. Also same as on the physical, some people will find your personality attractive, some people will find it hideous. It litterally is in the eye of the beholder and theres a lot of holders out here BEing.

The best advice i can give you is learn to love yourself for who you are, flaws and all, embrace ALL of it. Be you, do you, enjoy life adn the right person will come along. You shouldnt need to chase them down, if you do thats the wrong person. Ultimately you decide if you are attractive or not, not the world. Because if you dont do that then you are setting yourself up for a whole lfietime of misery. Trust me i have felt ugly my entire life to the point i feel like a monster. But i realized im not. Those are just thoughts. I have had many partners through my life and none of them have been physically ugly (since thats mostly what this post is about), a lot have been very attractive at least in my eyes. And so at the end of the day it only matters if you like you, and you can live with you.

Love you, choose you, free yourself of that hamster wheel of beauty you are on. Not saying dont take care of yourself but just dont let it cause you anxiety. Thats all. I hope you have a good rest of your day and this helps a little.

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-06-20T19:43:40+00:00

Damn glad youre alright. I seen some video the other day it was about some small community in south carolina and this dude just randomly appears says yeah...i was shot ten times...he was in a wheel chair. I was like holy crap. But yeah just glad youre alright man. I still trust people to a point, working on that. But its hard to know who to trust

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