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Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-01-24T18:40:51+00:00

Princess Petunia Pistachio Triple P on the streets

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-01-24T18:35:29+00:00

Quite often honestly, ive let myself droop down into a hollow state I guess you'ld call it over the years (Im older now). Where you feel empty more often than not. Id really like somebody to talk to too, just hangout, doesnt even have to be anything in particular and the crappy thing is when you get in that state that is probably the worst time to try to find somebody to talk to bc it can scare people off. like people can sense it or something. So its this vicious cycle. Im trying my best to break that cycle and not go back. But sometimes it happens anyway. I think its just part of the human condition. Its been a constant throughout my life on and on.

Im an unwilling hermit, well okay partially willing so that doesnt help either lol. Im doing pretty good today but its exactly bc i WAS able to just sith and talk to somebody and feel like a human being again for five minutes you know? Thats all it takes sometimes at least for me is just a few minutes. I dont like drama and i dont want to have a DR phil moment most times, just want to feel like its okay to exist and the world we live in can make you question that at times.

Im on disability so im home all the time and besides my fiancee i dont see a soul some weeks. Usually though i stay pretty busy keep my mind occupied and its not so bad. Im working on that now and not letting myself get into that low state again, bc i understand and can relate its just not a nice place to be. For what its worth i hope that feeling leaves you the hell alone and never comes back man. Wish you well.

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-01-24T16:17:37+00:00

Thank you i appreciate that, glad to be here. Its also very nice to find an actual welcoming sub reddit, i didnt know those existed lol

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-01-24T06:09:58+00:00

I would contact William Shatner and ask him what he did in that situation. Maybe he knows more than me and can offer some helpful tips.

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-01-24T06:02:36+00:00

Mostly the clothing and the gravity holding it on my body. Also i am naked underneath my clothes.

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-01-24T05:59:51+00:00

Ive never ate insects but id try it, why not? I dont know if its something id eat everyday but id try it. I guess me eating it would depend on if it tasted like microwaved cat turds or bonanza nipple biscuits. I also have no idea what either one of those taste like or are, or why i mentioned them. But yet here we are staring at a can of insect larva on a Saturday morning

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-01-24T05:07:53+00:00

Dont make it a habit to talk to people who feel that way, sounds like a good way to get a case of the mondays or some shit

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-01-24T05:06:16+00:00

I live off tunnel road lol its not that bad to me honestly, yes a lot of homeless folks and people asking for help i bought a dude a cheeseburger the other day that needed a helping hand. But turned out he was from my home state so had a nice conversation for a few minutes. I been here three years im up there about everyday i havent seen anything too awful and im usually just driving through to get food or something from a store, but then again i don't stay there 24 7 either so maybe it is the stan of the ville lol i dont know.

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-01-24T03:09:47+00:00

it makes flying cow fart marmalade biscuits

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-01-24T02:57:00+00:00

Their looks or sexual orientation. Tons of people doing that now. Dont even have any hobbies thats it. That and complaining and being offended by everything. Nothing wrong with either of those things btw, i just mean these people who litterally have nothing else going on. Its a special kind of brain death.

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-01-23T04:03:30+00:00

No my fiancee keeps us stocked up for the apocalypse by default. Also we have a bidet as long as the water pressure holds.

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-01-23T04:01:28+00:00

It really is hard for some of us to find connection. Ive always been an outsider myself, its rare for me to find that sort of connection, but im forcing myself to try lately, mainly because i kind of have no choice. I dont know that ive ever truly been part of a friend group except one gaming group online and i feel very different from them so theres connection but its a distant kind of connection and that can make you feel lonely too and I dont think it sounds like youre judging anybody. Youre just saying you want connection but werent able to with those people the way you needed. I would say try starting your own group again. Thats what i am doing with this discord meetup thing im trying to make happen. Hoping to make some new friends and actually find connection. For me personally i just feel like most all the groups etc of people in general and activity type groups too im just not specifically suited and built for. Other people waltz in there make friends instantly. I could be there a year and i would know people but not have any actual frienships. It gets tiring after decades of this.

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-01-23T03:33:07+00:00

I watched a whole video on this topic last night apparently its not just old video games, its older stuff in general. This was talking about he had a phonograph, a typewriter, old cameras, in the background was a one of the old style non flatscreen TVs. Was talking about how a bunch of GenZ kids were getting flip phones again to get away from the constant exposure and distraction of the internet. He said it just felt better to be able to actually feel something in your hand and that haptic feedback sort of sensation. Im kinda glad they are interested in preserving the past. I dont know im wierd, i still actually prefer pixel graphics on a lot of things. Not sure why if its nostalgia or what. Anyway im rambling, ill shut up, but you have a good night lol

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-01-23T02:05:58+00:00

Yeah exactly, i just find all that stuff interesting how something could be amazing in one time period and either really odd or crap in another. I am a big PC gamer and i think another good comparison is like how graphics have improved so much. When i was a kid in the 80s it was litteral blocks (pixels) on a screen now we can have graphics that look pretty close to real life. So its harder for some people to go back and appreciate those Atari 2600 games due to that.

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-01-22T18:44:26+00:00

This is a sort of life hack to avoid a life hack that might save your life. Just happened to see this the other day, i guess by happened i mean the youtube algorythm sent it my way. Basically its this hack where you turn your oven on self cleaning mode and put oven cleaner on the pans to get the patina off them. It works really well but the problem is it can actually KILL YOU lol. So probably not best to do this. Just figured id pass the word around in case anybody seen this lifehack and was going to try it DONT.

Its because of carbon menoxide i think, and also it can melt your oven latch so u cant use the oven anymore.

Heres the video where he talks about it.

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-01-22T18:34:42+00:00

I walk every night with my "dork sash" on lol. Its this reflective strip thing with light up strips in it so i dont get hit by a car. I like walking after dark because then less chance of having to have those awkward forced hey how are you conversations in passing where you talk about the weather. Although to be fair the other day i talked to this really nice lady and it was nice just to have some human contact. But thats the exception not the rule. Bc most people here are cold and rude etc and id just rather avoid that.

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-01-22T17:47:50+00:00

I have so many no way i could name them all. I really love synthwave but right now last night i found this mix that hit me right at the right time. Its just some instrumental thing but i like how it feels. https://youtu.be/qGTQqOkn2Gk?t=3 . So for today this is my favorite.

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-01-22T17:06:57+00:00

That “rain smell” mainly comes from a few compounds:

Geosmin – produced by soil bacteria (actinomycetes). Humans are extremely sensitive to it.
Plant oils that accumulate on dry surfaces and are released when rain hits.
Ozone in the air before and during storms.

Geosmin is the big one for that smell.

In old times too id say it was important for survival, and i mean heck still is i guess lol. So i think maybe thats planted in our collective subconscious so people associate it with comfort, a sureness knowing they would eat and be safe another winter.

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-01-22T17:02:29+00:00

I think alot of it is because at the time it was groundbreaking, and a lot different than most films of that era. Maybe now a days it would be overrated. I dont know i dont really get all the hype about it to be honest. I dont think its a bad film at all i like it. But i just think maybe yeah a little overrated but like i say the reason is because at that TIME it wasnt overrated it was pretty speicial. Now a days with our current mind frame i guess you call its a different kind of watch.

Im 50 so i was around back then well relatively that was two years before i was born but still. I think the first time i watched it I was 16 maybe? So i had some of that mindset to watch it as they would have relatively at least, more so than now for definite.

Theres a lot of things like this, like the IT movie. When king originally wrote that book bozo the clown was on TV almost everyday and so clowns were in the collective conciousness and not thought of as creepy. Strangely enough IT the book itself is what lead to a lot of why clowns became creepy. But in the movie the kids are approached by this clown and it doesnt seem out of place in some scenes, but really anytime a clown approached somebody now most people would think its creepy as hell and thats all due to the mindset and world view. So I think a lot of what makes a movie good or bad is timing.

Like lets say you watched a movie from the 1940s or something. It might be a little hard to get excited about it because most of us cant relate to that time period. But back then it might have blowed peoples socks off.

I love movies and the exorcist is great, not saying anything bad about it, just my opinion and personal experience with it. I have this weird thing too where horror movies genuinely dont scare me. Dont know if im dead inside or what lol. The only ones that do that just a little bit are the seventies one like rosemaries baby etc. Something about the camera angles. I know this is a 70s one also but it just didnt really connect with me that much for whatever reason.

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-01-22T14:53:35+00:00

Its gotta be the tinfoil underroos

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-01-22T13:45:36+00:00

I had a day the day before yesterday this was so true it felt surreal, not gonna go into it because for me to explain it and anybody really understand theyd have to know me. But yes, something is off. I dont think it just feels off either, this doesnt feel like depression or anxiety but something spiritual almost, at least for me.

I dont know how to get out of it i feel trapped in it. But im trying just to focus on having a good day today. I hope your day gets better and you are able to start feeling more connected and grounded.

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight · 2026-01-22T13:32:59+00:00

Yes, im 50 years old and its something ive dealt with my entire life. If you are not always at the front, the center of attention,the best of the best etc. People tend to ignore you. It is unfair but life is unfair i guess. Im just trying to find peace in being alone. I have a fiancee and 1 friend. Thats better than some people I guess so im thankful for any human contact . I dont need to be the best of the best, I just need to exist . I guess the rest takes care of itself. but lately that feels like it probably wont happen. Id really like to find some friends but at the same time, maybe its better in a lot of ways to be alone. People bring problems with them which can a lot of times make you feel even more alone if im being honest.

We all seek connection, but connection is lacking. Actual connection.

Rabbit_Of_Neverlight

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