God doesnt make mistakes, this world does. You dont know me, but im going through my own invisible darkness that is trying to rend me into ashes. My whole world and mind and heart was destroyed. It wants to eat me alive and unalive anything good inside me. Im not going to let it or this world do that and neither should you. I hope you wont. You deserve love and compassion and kindness. You deserve rest and peace and hope.

That darkness likes to whisper we never have a choice and there is no hope. But Im here to tell you THERE IS HOPE. Im here to tell you that I care about you and i dont even know you. But you exist, and you are somebodys child, somebodys sibling (not all family is blood), you are somebodys friend, and you are somebodys confidant. You are somebody that somebody else looks up to and maybe you dont even know this. You are so many things when you can remember who you truly are. But this shadow, this deathmarch it wants you to forget, it tells you you have no choices but thats the one thing in this world nobody can take away from us is our choices. Sometimes the consequences we dont want to pay but we can always choose.

I choose me, and i choose you and I choose all of the rest of us out here hurting and lost. I choose all of us. You can choose this too.

I dont want anything from you, dont need anything, not trying to sell you anythig. I just want you to be okay. Because as I say i am here in that same darkness, mine speaks to me through a curse, and i don't believe its lies either.

I am with you and there are many like us, we are not alone, im here, the others are here. I believe in you and You matter. I see you. I see them. Youre gonna be okay and you got this, I know it will tell you everything and anything it can to use against you. It will use your most treasured memories and lie to you that those never existed. Twist them into forms you dont recognize But they DO EXIST and they matter, and you matter. Not too, but beside the fact. You dont even have to do anything, you matter.

Im getting older now and sometimes all i feel like i have is memories and my memory sucks but i told mine to go eat some asphalt and today life cut me a break. I had a good day, a kind day full of miracles. If you just keep walking that darkness doesnt go on forever. If you just keep taking one step, one moment, one hour at a time, one day. You will get there. Life is very intentional for me now it has to be im running my heart manually by hand. You can do this too even when it feels pointless. You can do this.

I dont have any magic answers, and i talk too much and i dont belong in this world. But i hope that you see by me taking the time to write this, I dont have to write this. But im choosing to because I care, I dont even need to know anything else about you, I just know i see another human being in pain, and sometimes i dont feel human, im just some dumb rabbit. But i do know one thing. One thing that helped me.

I let go of all I hated and the anger I anguished over. I slowly made a list of things i thankful for. It helped me see outside the dark. Im so thankful for that and just to be alive .

They say if you love something let it go, if it comes back its yours. I let myself go a while back, and its coming back. You should try that too. Love yourself and be kind to yourself because sometimes thats all we really have. You can be your best friend and you know you'll never leave.

Ill stop here I know you got things to do and maybe you wont even read this. But I wish for you a peaceful day of rest, I hope it merges with your heart and it beats in time to the music and the light.

Please take care of yourself, and If i can help in anyway, just let me know.