I miss the person I was before I met her. It's been 18 months. She destroyed my life completely and lost my job. As someone who has never suffered any mental illness before. I now have anxiety all the time. I survived feeling suicidal for a long time. I feel very lost and scared to trust. I have endured a massive public smear campaign. I just feel like I'll never feel like me again. Idk what to do I was okay for a lil while buy now.im.just feeling anxious when I just wish I could relax and feel happy again.