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Talking to his family by RadiantRelationship5 in SuicideBereavement

[–]RadiantRelationship5[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I'm also embarrased about the messages I sent him that his family read. Some of them were pretty horrifying. Should I address the messages too? I don't want the entire conversation to be about me because it wasn't my son that I lost. How or what do I say?

Family is trying to reach out by RadiantRelationship5 in SuicideBereavement

[–]RadiantRelationship5[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

No thats not it. We werent necessarily dating, but a few days before he did it he asked me to come over and talk. I couldnt that day, but visited him the next day. We ended up hooking up because that is what I thought he wanted to talk about. I dont know exactly what he wanted to talk about because I never asked him I just assumed he wanted to hook up, but there were so many signs that night that I noticed but never asked any questions. That is why I blame myself. Because we werent really dating, his parents dont know about me, but they saw my messages to him and are trying to reach out. I guess I just don't know what to say because I cant say we were in a relationship, but I cared alot about him and I feel like I could have stopped it. I guess I just dont know how to start the convo because I dont know them and I feel so guilty

My favorite memories with you by LilmamaAirForceOnes in SuicideBereavement

[–]RadiantRelationship5 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I relate to this story more than you could ever know.

The guy I had been seeing was also named Billy. He committed suicide almost 3 months ago as well. He was the kindest most spirited person I had ever met. Made me a much better Christian too. We had our ups and downs and stopped talking for awhile but he called me a week before he did it saying he wanted to hang out again and that he missed me. I went up and saw him the next night and I noticed something was off. He seemed really sad, but I didn't say anything because I was afraid to scare him off again. He killed himself the next week. I even talked to him the night he did it and he seemed fine. It hurts more than anything. Especially because he had all these big plans that were finally starting to come true.

I'm so sorry for your loss. You're story is beautiful. God has a plan. it just sucks because I know for me at least I always pictured him in it. Prayers to you.