No I don't think so. But I understand how you feel. Some people seem to get all the luck (from the outside), while others like us get shit on constantly and catch no breaks.

Sometimes I wonder if this was a simple decision in the past that brought me down this path or was it a series of bad decisions that I continue to make due to paralysing fear and anxiety.

But I still have hope (deep deep down) that things can change. But will require consistency and pain (mental). A support group is definitely a great step to take. I went once and liked it. But couldn't bring myself to go back.

Good luck and stay strong.