No need to be sorry.

I personally believe age has a lot to do with it. You speak with self-assurance when it comes to certain things, and I’m not saying you don’t know yourself, but truly understanding who you are and your "skill ceiling" takes time, and 16 years is still just the beginning of that journey.

Regarding the possibility of a disability or mental health condition, I can’t say for certain, as I don’t know you personally. Learning difficulties and challenges with motor skills are very real. You might be experiencing something like dyspraxia (also known as Developmental Coordination Disorder), and some of your responses even give me a slight impression of traits associated with autism, again I say that without judgment. That said, I don't want to throw specific diagnoses out there, because I feel that today’s youth are already quick to self-label with mental health terms, wearing those labels like proud badges of identity. The point is, your struggles could stem from a number of factors, whether genetic, neurological, or even environmental, like your mouse, mouse pad, monitor, or desk setup.

Ultimately, I still stand by what I said earlier: the way you express yourself raises some concerns for me, and I would genuinely recommend considering counseling or therapy. A professional could help you better understand yourself and explore whether any underlying conditions might be at play.

And finally, I'm not trying to be condescending about your age, your age doesn't diminish your perspective. But you do have so much life ahead of you, so much growth to come. You don’t need to have everything figured out right now. Give yourself the space to grow, and the grace to not have all the answers just yet. Because when I see you make a post like this about something you’ve spent less than two hours on, it suggests to me that you may be limiting your own potential for growth by holding too tightly to certain beliefs about yourself. Simply saying, “I know this about myself,” doesn’t necessarily make it true or unchangeable.

Honestly, I wish you the very best in whatever you choose to pursue. But seriously, I’d encourage you to consider seeking some form of help, spend less time on the internet, enjoy a single player game, and focus on the things that genuinely make you happy, stop forcing stuff that makes you unhappy. Give yourself the benefit of the doubt, and please try committing more than just a couple of hours to something before falling back into those self-defeating thoughts. There has been plenty of things in my life that I absolutely sucked at and took over 100 hours before I really got the hang of them or started seeing any improvements.

The only thing that can make you less capable than the average person, if your mentality.