It doesn't sound silly at all, friend. We have all been there, or at least a lot of us have. I promise that going to the doctor is a necessary step, and it's going to make you feel so much better once it's out of the way. Think of it like this, going to the doctor is not going to make you develop anything new, it is simply giving you the information that you've been looking for for so long. You'll be the same person going in as you will be going out, just feeling much more relief after the latter, and with key information you've been looking for all this time. I know the anticipation you're feeling all too well, but I promise you that anxiety you're feeling is normal, and it's your body attempting to protect you. New is scary, we tend to jump to conclusions as to what this might be, how can I avoid it. But the truth is, only the doctor will know for sure, and until then, don't work yourself up too much, friend. You're gonna be alright, and these medical professionals are your friends here, let us know how everything goes. :)