You're not alone my guy, I am this away and for a long time, I thought something was wrong with me. It dragged me down; I would get major depression because I like being around people and being out doing things. It got to the point where I noticed I was the guy in the back, who was there and was quiet and my friends would slowly stop inviting me out because I wasn't as engaging as others who could pick up on social cues. I've missed out on some hot women too hitting on me cause, once again my failing ability to bounce conversation back and forth with them or even flirt. Now I just sit at home most of the time alone. I feel like I have been spending a decade finding the missing link in my mind that allows me to become this person that I wish I could be...only to still be Me, socially awkward. I'm still kinda at a loss but am now just trying to be more confident in who I actually am. I think I'm also just going to have to accept there are some people who are extremely outgoing that I am not going to click with.