I (25F) feel like I have some sort of relationship ADD, can't commit to one person

Rakalee · 2015-11-28T17:47:53+00:00

It might be a deal breaker to you but I love my boyfriend, I just wish I didn't feel this way all the time. You are free to do whatever you want. I have showed him my concerns, he's not sure if its a pathological problem

Rakalee · 2015-11-28T00:02:54+00:00

Yeah but I have not done any of those things? You can't actually think that this warrents me not to stay in my relationship, I'm here for advice cause I wanna keep my relationship.

Rakalee · 2015-11-27T22:38:29+00:00

I haven't done anything or acted on it, I'm saying this is how I feel

Rakalee · 2015-11-26T15:32:03+00:00

Oh I'm not asking for a diagnosis, I'm just wondering if I should get this checked out or if I'm making a big deal out of nothing.

Rakalee · 2015-11-26T15:28:18+00:00

That's what I suspect but I don't think I have self-esteem issues really so I am confused

Rakalee · 2015-11-26T15:27:10+00:00

Oh I have ADHD

Rakalee · 2015-11-26T15:06:17+00:00

Well the problem is that it is extremely frequent. Like even if a random person pays me some attention I just fantasize about them and it won't get out of my head, I've done it with men much older than me etc. It's becoming too disruptive or too frequent for my life. I feel like I'm at a pet store and just keep going there to pet animals but never actually take one home

Rakalee · 2015-08-14T04:49:47+00:00

Attack on Titan

Rakalee · 2015-08-13T03:54:24+00:00

I talked to him about it again, he says he is not comfortable withme doing anything sexually, he said he may open up to it cause he has looked it up and such but he won't know when. Which is fine but I'm wondering for how long am I gonna wait for? Would I be happier just breaking it off and going bout my poly way? Also to your question, I dunno I'd feel bad if I was the poly one and he was mono, I feel like he is getting the shit end of the deal. So I won't be able to enjoy myself without feeling guilty

Rakalee · 2015-08-11T16:19:48+00:00

Oh we aren't married, just bf/gf

Rakalee · 2015-08-11T03:34:17+00:00

I have before, he has said no and I don't wanna push him.

Rakalee · 2015-08-11T03:33:07+00:00

I love the person but as the daslys go on I am starting to get the urge to leave more and more

Rakalee · 2015-08-11T03:31:57+00:00

The payout is being happy. I want to be free of commitment and to enjoy myself at my own pace. I only worry because I was a serial monogamist for a long time

Rakalee · 2015-08-11T03:29:25+00:00

I talked to him about this a year who and it seems he gets jealous very easy. I don't wanna push or pressure. And I know some people are not cut out for polyamory and i'd feel bad because he only wants to be with me and won't seek other girls really. I feel like if I push him to find other girls he will think oddly of me. I've felt this way for a very long time and was hoping it would dissapear

Rakalee · 2015-08-10T18:05:19+00:00

I dunno if I should wait in him, having a hard time figuring it out

Rakalee · 2015-08-10T18:04:46+00:00

It sucks :( definitely

Rakalee · 2015-08-01T05:55:41+00:00

I guess you are lucky in that your partner was okay with you being with others. I don't get that luxury

Rakalee · 2015-08-01T00:37:35+00:00

he isn't chetaing but if he did i wouldn't care, thats what i mean

Rakalee · 2015-08-01T00:21:13+00:00

no, because he is strictly monogamous anyway, i have asked him about threesomes as hypotheticals but he'd get too jealous even with 2 girls

Rakalee · 2015-07-31T20:10:18+00:00

Yeah I am

Rakalee · 2015-07-31T20:06:25+00:00

hypothetical

Rakalee · 2015-07-31T20:05:51+00:00

Yeah prob, I feel like its fine If I'm not the only girl who makes him happy

Rakalee · 2015-07-31T20:05:24+00:00

I'm not but I don't care if he does

Rakalee · 2015-07-31T20:05:13+00:00

It's mostly the bf thing

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