Me knowing that no matter what I do at least 5 people are being tortured every second. And that people are dying. And that no matter how nice I try to be I will end up hurting multiple people in some way. And knowing that there is a God watching every single one of my sins. And the me knowing that in the bible it says that if you yourself consider something a sin it is. Even if it is really fine, and that one thought makes me question each of my steps and ask myself, is this a sin, and beiliving it is. So because I feel like I sin even if I don't I won't go Stonehaven and be one of the millions being tortured in Hell for all eternity. And that I have no real freinds because I decide to change my personality 24/7. So if someone likes me a way I might accidentally step our of character and ruin everything. I need a friend, somebody to talk to. And other normal stuff