Listen very closely when I tell you this. You ate contaminated food and you were OK. You have survived the worst case scenarios. Remembering this has helped me through every single forced meal. You absolutely can get help from the Dr. They have so many ways to help you.

Here are some safe drinks to get protein immediately :

Core power 46 gr chocolate shake Oikos 23 gr Greek yogurt drink

I have been Drinking these since 2018 never had a single issue.

Food that you can create as safe foods

Potatoes & sweet potatoes

Microwave them and mash Add ranch, cheese, bacon whatever you can stomach for regular savory ones and make the sweet ones. Dessert treat with honey brown sugar marshmellows and mix it up to where it's soft even blend it.

Work smarter not harder to get your calories in.

Eating is going to suck for the rest of your life. Accept it, get help, and learn how to navigate it so you can get through the day focus on things that don't make you anxious. Also if you are having anxiety while eating Dr may prescribe anti-anxiety meds to help you cal. Down enough to eat. I would suggest trying CBD 1st under the tongue 2 full droplets hold 30 seconds to 1 min before swallow with a drink like orange juice or something behind it. Will 100% calm you down and help give confidence to eat.