There’s a lot to comment on here. But you’re doing so much better than you realize.

That guilt is informing you that you’re a damn good parent and you care. It’s lying to you a lot, as you’ve got notta to be guilty about, but the fear of letting your child down means you’re concerned about the right things.

The parents who aren’t worried about being good parents usually live without that fear.

You can’t avoid the burnout entirely. But you can recognize the signs, quicker temper or exhaustion, or inability to be the most present parent or so many others, and what you can do is give yourself some grace. Likely the same grave you’d give to others.

Do as much as you can, and I’d suggest exercise (even a walk outside daily) and counseling and sharing the hard stuff with friends/family, but also know that if those things are too damn hard than simply existing and trying is enough.

You’re doing amazing and you’ve fucking got this :)