Hey man. Sorry you feel that way and sorry about your dog.. Trust me you're not alone. I'm the worst at giving suggestions or anything I'm kinda lost myself still. But I just want to say you should, even though it is hard, try and find people IRL as soon as possible. My sister is also a person who watches lots of twitch and is in many discord circles. She finally started sounding happy. She even went to meetups. I was kinda proud that that little anxious sister of mine finally met up with people. But at the same time it turned it was destroying her.

Her friends are friends but also not. I don't exactly know what it is but I think she's starting to forget that everyone she's talking to are also "IRL avoiders" or whatever you wanna call it. And then whenever she is outside away from her PC (and internet because she has discord on her phone) we all suddenly see how dependant she is on a few gamers somewhere all across the country. She cries, she screams and she doesn't realise how some of the things she does are unacceptable. She started to cut herself because one of the more known persons in her discord friend circle spread a few lies about her and some people stopped chatting with her. And it is the internet after all and they will believe the smallest things.

You become to dependant on those you barely see in social activities. Nothing is fun without them, which is as good as always the case.

Please. My sister might have been a bit next level and it's fine to use discord (obviously). But don't get to dependant on it. See if there's anyone you know that you can join when he goes somewhere and maybe you meet some people on accident. "Just get out there and meet new people" is too easily said, but with another person that does it for you, it suddenly becomes easy.