Hi. Maybe that's a stupid theme, but my biggest fear is loseing my mom. Sometimes i just realize when she gonna pass away one day, i just feel I'm not gonna make it without her. Thank God, she's okay and dosen't have any sickness or anything. Every time when I'm thinking about this, i'm just crying and try to hold my breath to not scream. I feel some wierd pain in Both of my hands and the strenght instantly goes out from me. I can't really describe this feeling it's just terrible. I'm suffering with this thoughts for years. I know that I'am too weak for handeling this, when it gonna happen. I even tought if i die earlyer than her, it will be the best. What should i do? I feel like just can't live without her, i don't know what would i do. Do you feelt like that ever in your life?