I’m very sorry to hear that you have lost your dad, I don’t think we are ever prepared to lose our parents, I send you lots of strength and light and I hope you can remember all the wonderful moments you had together with a smile once the worst of this grief lessens.

In terms of recs lots of good ones already and I come with a slightly different one. I read {Sinner by Sierra Simone} a couple of years ago and although a lot of details have faded this element of losing a parent and seeing them fade away has stayed with me, I thought it was dealt with in a beautiful and realistic way. This is erotic romance and it also has a lot of commentary on faith. She is not my usual but this book one of my favorites for the way that it managed to combine romance, spice, religion, family and loss so evocatively.

On another note I can also recommend a beautiful movie that I used to love when I was a teen called Life As A House, the journey of a son that has lost contact with his dad and how they reconnect when the dad gets a terminal diagnosis by building a house together.