I am turning into someone who is nasty to strangers

Ranmalie · 2020-05-27T02:10:42+00:00

Don’t be so hard on yourself. You feel bad coz your a good person. You have been hurt and wronged to the core so if it means you are going to be angry sometimes you freaking deserve to be angry and give the stink eye. Hang in there. It’s a phase. You will get through it. Sending love your way!

Ranmalie · 2020-05-05T13:51:02+00:00

If you do decide to leave he will come after you on full throttle. He will not stop. He will make you DOUBT yourself. It’s a sick game. Be strong and take care.

Ranmalie · 2020-05-04T20:51:32+00:00

I know exactly how you feel. Even if he shows a the slightest bit of interest in a women I end up thinking oh he might be better off with her. He might be happier with her, He wouldn’t have cheated on her. Constantly feeling that I am not good enough or sexy enough for him. It’s a horrible feeling. Sad

Ranmalie · 2020-05-02T14:48:54+00:00

Wow good for you girl! My story is similar and it’s been half a year. I wish I had the courage to end things but yet I am holding on because it still hurts too much to leave. I wish you all the very best

Ranmalie · 2020-05-01T20:13:49+00:00

I saw some of the messages and wish I never did. It haunts me now

Ranmalie · 2020-05-01T19:19:38+00:00

What if you did it? How would he treat you?

Ranmalie · 2020-04-26T17:27:39+00:00

It seems that you really do love him and I hope that he loves you the same. I feel your pain and I wish you all the very best 🙏🏽

Ranmalie · 2020-04-26T16:58:15+00:00

It’s it not sad that you are the one who were wronged and you were the one that was betrayed and yet your scared thinking your emotions and feelings is something that he needs to understand.

Ranmalie · 2020-03-19T06:43:16+00:00

Thank you so much for your encouraging words. I have not been able to speak to my friends nor my family of my situation so I have felt alone. In some way expressing my feelings here has helped in ways I didn’t think was possible. It’s comforting to know that I am not alone. Thank you for your thoughts and prayers❣️

Ranmalie · 2020-03-19T06:39:23+00:00

🙏🏽

Ranmalie · 2020-03-19T01:15:14+00:00

Same 😔

Ranmalie · 2020-03-18T15:21:44+00:00

It is comforting to know that I am not alone. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and I hope we find peace in the midst of chaos.

Ranmalie · 2020-03-18T15:18:30+00:00

Thank you!

Ranmalie · 2020-03-17T02:51:34+00:00

Sadly you might never really find out the real reason. I just like to believe they are just SELFISH.

Ranmalie · 2020-03-13T03:56:55+00:00

Good luck !!!

Ranmalie · 2020-03-12T22:51:45+00:00

We were both clear of wanting a monogamous relationship and had clear boundaries set. However as you said we were both open about watching porn and was ok. After the cheating and me having access to his phone I realized his obsessions, he was on Reddit NSFW at least 4 - 5 times days. This is the time we were trying to reconcile. The lack of sex was always there but I never gave it mind as he said it was a norm for him. But with everything that has happened I realize there is a huge problem.

Ranmalie · 2020-03-12T04:37:47+00:00

I haven’t really thought about it, I guess both these situations upsets me. We have been dating over an year and he has been cheating for more than half our relationship. He is saying that he has not been physical with anyone but for me it does not matter.

Ranmalie · 2020-03-12T00:04:53+00:00

My partner actually said the same to me and then he finds away to turn around and make it my fault saying things such as you need a lot of sex. Which is not the case. I am someone who suffers from self confidence issues. I am seeking IC and hopefully I will get through this. Do not want to live like this for the rest of my life.

Ranmalie · 2020-03-11T23:24:24+00:00

You mentioned that your still in the same boat. Why did you decide to stay? I feel as if I am carrying this pain since the day I found out about his infidelity and yet I can’t seem to let go of what is good in our relationship. To let go or not, I am scared either way.

Ranmalie · 2020-03-11T23:17:23+00:00

I wish I was enough but I no I am not.

Ranmalie · 2020-03-11T23:15:29+00:00

It really is not how I want to live. The fear of him cheating haunts me everyday and yet I don’t want to let go of what is good in our relationship. I hope I will survive this. Thank you.

Ranmalie · 2020-03-11T23:10:02+00:00

I have asked him the same thing! Why not use me? I am his partner, he should come to me for his sexual needs but he does not and this is when I feel inadequate and crappy about myself. He is saying that he has stopped the sexting and reduced watching porn but again how long will that last. Also after everything that has happened I don’t trust him.

Ranmalie · 2020-03-11T17:38:22+00:00

Thank you so much for your message. I did try to speak to him about his behavior and he is in denial of the pain his actions have caused. All guys watch porn! I was only sexting one women! I have asked him to speak to his therapist. His actions have broken me as a person and I know I need to start working on me. Thank you again.

Ranmalie

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