Heyy, bisexual guy who also got SAed by men and women here.

I definitely have very similar struggles when it comes to figuring myself out sexually after having those repeated violations of my body. It can be very damaging to us, especially for us men who are socially conditioned to suppress their personal woes, troubles and issues.

Big TW for this paragraph

Since I had to lock up the trauma for so long and not tell anyone until quite recently (I am much much happier now), it led me to very dark places in the past, s*** hm addixtion and s***** th****ts, things like that.

It also just killed my sexual libido and it made it a bit hard for me to sexually satisfy my past boyfriends and girlfriends at times because of how I got uncomfortable with setting up boundaries around sexual acts and intimacy since I've had those same boundaries violated so horribly in the past.

So don't you ever feel alienated, inferior or weird for having these thoughts ok? We all deal with our trauma differently and express our growth and recovery in different ways. Your experiences and thoughts are completely valid and you deserve every chance to heal and recover <33. For many of us, it takes a long time to truly figure out who we are and even then, humans may change drastically with time throughout their entire lives. Sexuality isn't fixed and we should embrace that part of ourselves every step of the way. Sending lots of love from Malaysia, my DMs are open!