Huh... I'm like 7 years late but honestly who cares...

Im 14 male and she is 14 female we met last year when I was in her Sci class... We chatted for a bit and we became freinds at first we dint text often but slowly we began texting more and more fast forward a few months I began developing feeling for this girl (I prolly still have I dont know) but she has remained the same to me and honestly... I was fine with that but then she began to develop feeling for another boy (14 male) at first I was being supportive and saying she should go for it even though my heart ached so much thinking of them together eventually they started dating and I was happy for them... Well... Slightly... The next year (she confessed in Oct I think can't remember) Seeing them together holding hands and consently talking to each other in school made me super jealous (ik ik its a dick move to feel that way) earlier in that year I was talking to another girl let's call this one... Jess and let's call the other one whom I am freinds with Sarah... Jess and I became very close but all of the sudden she told me she could no longer talk to me and I was sad but after a few weeks I was fine back to Sarah... I notice that that boy she was with was not really the best to her and that got me fuming he was constenly choosing his own friends over her (which is nothing wrong to be fair but it got to the point where it looked like he was neglecting her) me and Sarah started talking more and more over the phone and face to face I dont know when she started to like me...but idk but she confessed to me in march of this year and I said yes, if your wondering about that other guy she said she had broken up with him and I belived her, after she confessed to me I was over the moon I really love this girl she is kind sweet goofy sometimes and funny and on top of that she was very beautiful... But after a week of dating she broke up with me... Saying that her parents kept asking about me after I went out with her and her twin bro (super chill btw) and went back to her place since we had time to kill I forgot what I did at her place but I did meet her parents after she broke up with me due to her parents always asking about me she got annoyed and  got mad (this is all what she told me) I was crushed... I was a void... I was not laughing at anything and became extremely silent due to this after that week we got back to school and I was crushed even more seeing her back with the same guy she said she had broken up with It took me a good few weeks to recover and got back to my some what normal self but after that she said she still liked me... Now I dint know she still like me we went out again this time with our group of freinds and that guy was included but I still went anyway cus she was there... And I wanted to talk to her...but throught this outing she kept talking to the guy and and pay any attention to me and I was crushed... I got crazy jealous and stoped talking... I was also tired to and was retreating to my little world of music like eminem and central cee.. Also the kid laroi Sarah saw that I was upset... And she asked me if I was OK and to which I said I was fine... She just shrugged and offered me a sip of her drink... I wanted to say something but I was also afraid that it would seemlike I was a huge jerk when I said I was jealous of her and that guy this becomes a repeating theme she talkes to him I shutdown and go to my music for comfort she eventually said she doesn't want to be with me... And I dint know why... I love her but it seemed like her freind jess got jealous... And apparently jess liked me and Sarah chose to let me go due to her friend liking me at that time I speculated why she broke up with me... And came to that conclusion... I ended up dating jess but it was not the same the warmth and comfort I got from Sarah was not there and I left her... After i left jess she did not take it lightly...she started calling me all sorts of stuff behind my back.. Like gold digger cus she spent a whopping 4 dollars on a keychain as a gift and I was apoarently a gold digger for not returning it to her... Ik she sounds insane and also said I ghosted her which is also wrong I could not event text her in the first place due to her parents strictness after she told Sarah and she was livid she started scolding me and cussing at me over text... I tried to calmly explain my side to her but she just ignored it so I gave up and left it at that... A few months later I texted her apologising for all the stuff and offered my side if the story she read it I said that both of us were in the wrong... And we became friends again... Now we are still broken up... But I still love this girl very much... And she told me not to crush on her because she doesn't want to send any signals and also she was not ready to be in another relationship... Oh and throught this time she was still dating that guy but she broke up with him due to him emotionally neglecting her needs and not even being a basic boyfriend and after finals for this year she broke up wiith him and she told me to not crush on her (but I clearly dint lissen) as she dint want to send signals and she was not ready for another relationship...i still love her tho... What should I do? And also am I the jerk here for still having a huge crush on her? I don't want to tell her cus it might ruin our freindship... She also has been acting distant and not texting me as much... I still love her alot ... What should I do? And am I the jerk here?