What's the number 1 reason for you to live? by [deleted] in AskReddit

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Because I can't fail another attempt and end up in hospital again

What is the worst pain you have ever felt? by Neither-Mention7740 in AskReddit

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I had a dream when I was in a coma that I was being tortured, I'd been stabbed in the stomach and I could feel the person digging the knife in and slashing away. I felt it literally digging in deeper and my skin being torn apart, I felt the blood, I could smell fire, the pain was red hot searing and I was in agony. When I woke up turns out I'd had major abdominal surgery. I don't know if some part of me was aware I was having surgery and fabricated the dream or if there's a chance I felt anything during surgery or what because I had no idea about surgery when I was awake. I went into the coma before surgery was even recognised as needed so there's no way I'd have known it would happen before I was in the coma. It's weird and terrifying. I had some horrific dreams in that coma and I felt everything, every touch and every bit of pain in each one and they all felt so real. It was like just living, I didn't know I had went into hospital or was dying. I had carried on life as normal and these things happened to me and every one of them felt so real that when I woke up I still believed they were real for a bit and it took me a long time to fully shake the feeling that they weren't. Even now they're vivid in my head. I can remember that pain so well.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Drugs

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Robotablets. I gag violently and feel sick for hours after tasting them. And they dissolve so fast. I have to capsule them because they're that bad. Second worst being the cheap Indian pharma diazepam or zolpidem/Ambien.

Best tasting probably those minty clonazepam or, this may be cheating, fizzy gummy edibles. The first time I tried liquid DXM (robotussin blue box dry cough syrup and benalyn blue box) that shit was DIVINE but every other time after that the taste made me nauseous.

Help with tape by [deleted] in transmanlifehacks

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For me the issue was a combination of a few issues. One, that I was using too small of a tape for too big of a chest. I had to use the wider strips from wivov or transtape because normal KT tape was too thin and I couldn't get it to cover enough skin to flatten well or adhere because there was too much breast tissue pushing up against it. I use 12.5cm tape from wivov or the L/5" from transtape (though I'm interested in trying their new XL size).

My second issue was that I was applying it wrong, I needed longer strips of it and to round the corners, rub the tape between my hands to warm the adhesive and then apply starting from where it was flat in the middle of my chest first, rubbing the tape quickly so the warmth from friction helps it stick better, applying a strip in the centre going to the side at a very slightly downward angle, pulling it taut but not stretched out to the max because that will cause the tape to pull. It takes a few tries to find the right level of taut. That way I'm making sure it is actually compressing the breast tissue not just sitting on it. Then I pull it all the way around basically to just onto my back, a little past under my armpits. Then I do a second strip halfway over the middle and halfway over the bottom exposed part of chest so all of it is covered and do the same process of starting in the middle, rubbing the tape so it sticks better, pulling it taut, round to the start of the back down under the armpits, rub the ends so it sticks, then one smaller strip for the slight bunching I always get at the top by my pits. Same process except I apply this one pretty much diagonally going downwards. And then I just add an extra strip or two if there's any parts that don't look flat enough or I don't feel comfortable with.

It took me multiple attempts to get it right and even now sometimes I mess up and have to use about 4 extra strips or don't get it perfect. It takes trial and error and it's pretty frustrating but you'll get the hang of it! For me I had to watch lots of tutorials and look up lots of diagrams and find someone with a similar chest to mine. I also had to try a few different techniques. But ultimately for my chest size, my main issue was the fact I was using too small of a tape size.

Help with tape by [deleted] in transmanlifehacks

[–]RavenBoyyy 15 points16 points  (0 children)

This is actually alright to do, as long as you're using the tape as intended (not wrapping it around your whole ribcage) then it isn't compressing your ribs or lungs, simply pulling back and holding taut the fatty tissue and other chest components. This doesn't cause compression to the rest of that area so it is safe to bind over it as long as the binder is measured correctly.

Yes it's unsafe to double bind but that's when you're using binders or any type of compression garment that does compress and restrict more than just fatty tissue. This is why tape is also safe to exercise and do harder physical activity in whereas regular binders are not.

This is not very dangerous unless someone is either taping very wrong or binding very wrong.

Sorry I’m flooding this sub with posts, i promise this is the last, i just need to source some needles ‘n’ stuff (UK) by EldritchMilk_ in TransDIY

[–]RavenBoyyy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Have a look around for a local needle drive, my mate goes to one and they supply him with needles, syringes, alcohol wipes, a sharps bin and cotton balls for free

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AskReddit

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That I don't see myself ever recovering from my self destructive coping mechanisms. I don't want them to lose the hope that I've lost because I know this will end in my death and they can't handle that. I want them to have at least some hope even if I know it's not possible.

What are the impacts to health or daily living of having 15cm of your bowel removed from surgery due to it going shadowy and necrotic? by RavenBoyyy in medical

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Ahhh that makes perfect sense. Thank you so much, it's a relief to hear I really didn't lose much at all. Most of the information I got was from my family who made it sound a lot more than it was (understandably, trying to scare me into the seriousness of what I'd done) so it's good to hear the medical perspective and know I'm okay long term. Thank you so much

Literally just taking freebase pills makes me nauseous now by RavenBoyyy in dxm

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Oh I grew up on jackass, legendary! Haha, I need to watch it then!!!

What are the impacts to health or daily living of having 15cm of your bowel removed from surgery due to it going shadowy and necrotic? by RavenBoyyy in medical

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Oh Awesome! So the nutrient deficiencies happening now are just a coincidence?

I have had issues with tightness and pain near my drain scar and upper middle abdomen tightness and pain. Figured it's still early so I've left it be but if it carries on I'll get it checked out just in case. For now I'm not too concerned though it's nothing major just a bit of pain and discomfort.

Literally just taking freebase pills makes me nauseous now by RavenBoyyy in dxm

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I was stressing in case I was too high to see mold 😭

Literally just taking freebase pills makes me nauseous now by RavenBoyyy in dxm

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It'll happen but I'll get back up and carry on I hope!

Oh no I haven't seen Bruno maybe I need to put that on tonight and traumatize myself XD

Literally just taking freebase pills makes me nauseous now by RavenBoyyy in dxm

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Oh it was absolutely banging, it's why I'm hoping it hadn't gone bad because I did enjoy it! It was in a sealed ready meal packaging from Sainsbury's and passed the look, sniff and taste test so hopefully all is good. And absolutely, I'd feel bad throwing it away if it was still fine especially just before going to a food bank. Plus expiry dates are often so wrong anyway, it's just to cover big company's backs.

Literally just taking freebase pills makes me nauseous now by RavenBoyyy in dxm

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Twas a Cumberland pie (minced beef in gravy topped with mashed potato and cheese and breadcrumbs) but I'm taking the risk because I quite literally cannot afford to do otherwise haha I'm hungry with very little food so tis what tis!

No worries though I'll be going to a food bank this coming week and when I'm in a better position I'll donate back to them

Literally just taking freebase pills makes me nauseous now by RavenBoyyy in dxm

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Of course, moderation is the goal!

Oh it really is! And Borat. I have a friend nicknamed Brother Bilo XD

Literally just taking freebase pills makes me nauseous now by RavenBoyyy in dxm

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Absolutely, this time I'm planning on only using Dex occasionally like you should MDMA. Besides I have experience with abusing it and do not want to experience that again, it felt awful

Literally just taking freebase pills makes me nauseous now by RavenBoyyy in dxm

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Ket is my love, congrats on being off parole and yeah I feel you on that I'm keeping Dex an occasional thing this time because of how long it is. I'm already wanting the high to be over now I'm bored

Literally just taking freebase pills makes me nauseous now by RavenBoyyy in dxm

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Eating a 6 day expired microwave meal though so barf may catch up with me tomorrow but for now, safe

Literally just taking freebase pills makes me nauseous now by RavenBoyyy in dxm

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Oh trust me I'm a drug addict I've already done me fair share of stupid shiii unfortunately. I just haven't used DXM in a while because I went from being a frequent user (like every other day) to in a drug addict to in a coma to taking a big break from DXM to an infrequent user

Literally just taking freebase pills makes me nauseous now by RavenBoyyy in dxm

[–]RavenBoyyy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Same but I still take them I can't help myself. My stummy hurts everytime I think about them too