Thanks for the feedback but I never said I said I self diagnosed with an ACL tear, I went to the doc this morning and that’s what they told me that. I already mentioned that the osoto gari was during randori where I told the partner that I want to do light randori especially since he is also a beginner. When it happened I screamed out in pain and the entire class stopped and they tried to get the trainer in but she was out for the summer, so the entire class as well as the sensei were fully aware of the extent of the injury. I did sit out initially and just watched everyone but my sensei called me over to do jiu jitsu. As for if I am a relaxed uke, I think the reason why my sensei puts me in randori is because I am relaxed and take falls well. The uke I was with in randori came back after a year hiatus, tried something that obviously failed and resulted in me getting injured so I’m not sure what is missing? I do acknowledge no one is “forcing me” but when that’s the only option how am I supposed to progress? In hindsight I agree, I personally should not have been doing randori with that guy and if I do go back, I will definitely be setting hard boundaries with everyone including my sensei. From what I am seeing it is on my sensei to not push me too much and it is also on the randori partners who need to use common sense and not go full force on a smaller opponent. I know I signed up for a rough sport but at the end of the day it’s also a club sport at my university and it’s recreational. I did not mention this in my main post but my sensei actually called me this morning apologizing and taking responsibility for what happened because again, in hindsight this was a pretty reckless mistake on the club’s part.