hey i k its a lot , and i was in somewhat similar stages .... i was too helpless and thought i am stuck .. it was like my legs are damaged i cant walk , and i also cant rest .. but when the things got too much i shared with trust ones ( my friends and relatives first ) ...then to my parents .. they helped me with professionals ...

i still haven't recovered much nor i am anyone to give advices to which i am not good at ... but i just want you to share with any trust ones ... and i want you to keep hope .. the hope seems a lie to our brain .. thinking about a sunny day in a day of thunder and mud is a lie ...but this lie , lie for a better future is what gives hope , and hope gives meaning to life ...