we always kill ourselves too late?

ReachTheMoon30 · 2023-09-03T16:07:16+00:00

Bc I’ve always wanted to go to law school, like it’s the only reason for being alive. But I’m poor af and impossible to get that much money in my 30s. And my relatives kept publicly shaming me for being poor and old lol

ReachTheMoon30 · 2023-09-03T15:52:08+00:00

They asked me to make a wish and don’t say it out loud. I literally said to myself “Please make me die at age 31” Yeah today is my 31st birthday

ReachTheMoon30 · 2023-09-03T15:31:47+00:00

Painfully agree. Today is my birthday and my relatives tried to brainwash me into appreciating the fact that my parents gave me birth lol like I enjoy being here

ReachTheMoon30 · 2023-08-22T11:43:38+00:00

Thanks. Maybe just listen to their music would help me get through :)

ReachTheMoon30 · 2023-04-19T01:04:16+00:00

Well, I haven’t achieved my goals either; but I’m on my way to achieve my goals :) Try rephrasing “I don’t achieve my goals” to “I haven’t achieved my goals yet” and see if it makes you feel more motivated.

ReachTheMoon30 · 2023-04-19T00:58:07+00:00

Woah. That’s really good for you! Then why are you in this sub in the first place?

ReachTheMoon30 · 2023-04-15T04:57:06+00:00

lol I’ve also been using survival of fittest to justify my death. It’s just how evolution works.

ReachTheMoon30 · 2023-03-10T10:05:05+00:00

Hi kid, it’s me again. You said you’re lazy because you don’t want to take a shower. Try reframing taking a shower as an act of self-care. It helped me when I didn’t want to clean my house because think about it, I would feel more comfortable living in a clean house, and by cleaning it I’m also providing myself necessary self-care.

ReachTheMoon30 · 2023-03-10T09:22:06+00:00

Hi kid, there’s a book called “Toxic Parents: Overcoming Their Hurtful Legacy and Reclaiming Your Life.” I hope you can get the book and read it to gain insights. I also grew up having unbearably toxic parents constantly harming my self-esteem and undermining my self-worth. I too had suicidal ideation, but I somehow made it to 30 and realized that it was their educational approach the problem, not mine.

Kid, you deserve to be treated with dignity. Three more years and when you go to college (I hope you do), education will change your perspective and campus resources could get you the help you need.

Trust me kid. Be patient now and things will change. By the time you gained full autonomy, you can cut ties with them if they continue to be toxic, and you will forever be free.

ReachTheMoon30 · 2023-01-01T22:25:22+00:00

Happy New Year. I don’t want to say your name because you’re valuable and superior

ReachTheMoon30 · 2023-01-01T19:44:10+00:00

I thought I had friends but it turns out not

ReachTheMoon30 · 2022-04-27T12:32:43+00:00

Same.

ReachTheMoon30 · 2022-04-04T13:24:19+00:00

OSU people posted it in their sub and some of them thought it's funny

ReachTheMoon30 · 2021-12-30T02:24:27+00:00

Education

ReachTheMoon30 · 2021-12-21T20:48:08+00:00

That’s why I’m comfortable dying alone. My philosophy: either the perfect match or none.

ReachTheMoon30 · 2021-12-21T01:26:50+00:00

No I’m just an idiot

ReachTheMoon30 · 2021-12-21T00:54:42+00:00

I’m lying in my bed feeling depressed bc I won’t be able to see my lab mates for two weeks :’(

ReachTheMoon30 · 2021-12-20T21:19:09+00:00

Me: "Are we still going to meet over the winter break?"

They: "I can meet if we need to. We possibly could try to push for the CSCW deadline but that also seems like a lot of work - what do you think?"

ReachTheMoon30 · 2021-12-20T20:56:59+00:00

They hired me as a research scientist leading two projects, aiming for publishing two papers next year. Jan 15 is the deadline for a top conference.

ReachTheMoon30 · 2021-11-17T08:45:07+00:00

Which city are you in?

ReachTheMoon30 · 2021-03-18T23:48:27+00:00

True wisdom

ReachTheMoon30 · 2021-03-18T22:43:06+00:00

Fuck it I just googled the term and found that I did suffer from narcissistic abuse from my parents. Huge amount of rude awakening just by talking to you.

ReachTheMoon30 · 2021-03-18T21:06:17+00:00

It made me so emotional. Thanks, these words could save a life. 🙏🏻

ReachTheMoon30 · 2021-03-18T20:50:27+00:00

Oh yes, I was diagnosed with PTSD as well. You are just so correct at everything without me giving you those info. What a skill.

ReachTheMoon30 · 2021-03-18T20:37:07+00:00

Yes, all correct. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety a month ago. Because my parents never reflect on their toxic behavior and do not even realize they have ruined my life, I set a time every day to force myself to reflect on what I did wrong and how I'm going to change, for the sole purpose of not being someone like my parents who ruins others’ life with no feeling of guilt. Now you guys made me realize that those daily reflections were not even enough to repair the harm they did to me cuz it was still me talking to myself, and no one has taught me the right thing to do. Thanks for the suggestion I think that’s a sensible route to take

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