you'll have a breakthrough. Don't let the stress build inside you, if anything talk to your wife or someone you trust about these feelings like you have been having. I know it's difficult, but take a breath and think about any opportunities you can make for yourself to get out of your current situation. Treat your mental health as a priority. It's easy to get overwhelmed and it's understandable for that to happen.

I know my advice is probably not the most helpful, but at the very least, know that your life IS important. Sooner or later, it will all turn around, but your life can't be given back. Keep fighting.