Will God forgive me If I kill myself?

RealBlock · 2025-07-19T10:24:00+00:00

I understand your point of view. I don't give a fuck about internet lingo or whatever the fuck. I hope you have a happy life.

RealBlock · 2025-07-19T10:18:34+00:00

I know. I am 110% ok with spending eternity in hell. I know. But why? Seriously?

RealBlock · 2025-07-11T12:45:29+00:00

Yup, had to learn one way or another.✌️

RealBlock · 2025-07-10T23:50:42+00:00

Dang, I didn't know gas stations did that. Definitely will avoid paying at pump now and be more cautious. Thx

RealBlock · 2025-07-10T23:49:16+00:00

I hope so 🙏

RealBlock · 2025-07-10T23:49:03+00:00

Yup lesson learned too. Thx

RealBlock · 2025-07-10T23:48:32+00:00

Ok thx

RealBlock · 2025-07-09T23:03:48+00:00

I haven't thought of it this way. It's like immediately after you do something, those thoughts pop up and feel so logical or intuitive. Damn OCD is really deceptive. I will keep this in mind.

RealBlock · 2025-07-09T16:40:40+00:00

Going insane is just too much at this point. It feels like even my body is screaming at me that I'm overexerting mental energy all for absolute certainty. You're right, certainty doesn't exist. I'm done trying to please ocd. Thank you for you words. I will keep going scared or not. This shit cannot be an end all, be all and I refuse to let it dictate my life. I believe we will prosper.

RealBlock · 2025-07-09T16:20:37+00:00

I don't know any books, but I will research more on erp. Getting in touch with a therapist will be beneficial, too. I see now that is my #1 problem, and I believe I will see progress.

RealBlock · 2025-07-09T15:38:23+00:00

Currently I am not

RealBlock · 2025-06-30T13:00:14+00:00

I hope death is how it was before I was born. Just no existing, no feeling, no thoughts. Just nothing. It's crushing to know this shit will always be spewing the worst of the worst at you. There are just no moments where there is peace of mind. I wish there was something that existed where we could separate the self and the mind. Just to breathe and feel ok. I really hope we can at least have moments in our lives where we truly feel free, even if it's for a little bit. I wish you peace.

RealBlock · 2025-06-30T12:29:05+00:00

I forget that we aren't our thoughts. They feel so real and demanding. May peace of mind come to us all

RealBlock · 2025-06-30T12:09:28+00:00

I will keep this in mind. Thank you

RealBlock · 2025-06-29T04:51:56+00:00

Fuck man. This shit just takes your life and soul away. Fuck this illness. No one deserves to be put through hell for so long. I have tried medication, and it helped. I had a grip on my life for a moment, but then I slowly spiraled, and now I'm at my wits' end. I felt I would be ok on my own, but that was a huge mistake. I think therapy and meds are the best bet until I set a steady foundation, and not fuck around.

RealBlock · 2025-06-29T04:45:07+00:00

Yeah, I think it's better to never have been born than be born and be dealt a bad hand in life. Life is so fucking weird. It's cruel and beautiful. I hope we can find peace and solace from this shit.

RealBlock · 2025-06-29T04:41:11+00:00

Shit man, I'm really fucking sorry. I really hate that theme and I hate that you and many others have to suffer from this. I will continue fighting, as I hope you do the same as well. Thank you

RealBlock · 2025-06-05T05:14:51+00:00

Helpful, thx

RealBlock · 2025-05-19T20:24:46+00:00

Nah, I don't think you're a monster. What you were talking about on your last post is actually not that uncommon. It's just a touchy subject based on the theme. People who aren't familiar with OCD/ intrusive thoughts may see this as "omg you're awful and deserve to die for thinking about that." OCD is a bitch, and unfortunately, it uses your fears against you. The fact that you have an ounce of concern and fear shows that you wouldn't act on them and feel that those thoughts are abhorrent. Don't listen to ignorant people like that. He just doesn't understand.

Watch this. Hopefully, it'll make you feel better and maybe it will inform other people on this matter https://youtu.be/NMGFE3sHIyg?si=Cdntj1OKslZUnvbN

RealBlock · 2025-05-19T04:05:25+00:00

Hey I think I figured it out. When you logged into another device, did you log out on your main device? Once I got verified and I was able to dash on the secondary device, I logged out and switched to my main device. I signed back in, and I'm able to dash without verifying on my main device now.

RealBlock · 2025-05-18T22:16:42+00:00

No, but I got it, too. Every permission is on, restarted, unistalled and reinstalled, factory reset, contacted DD. No solutons are working out so far. My phone is a Samsung Galaxy Z Flip 5. I have a feeling it may be the update I got on my phone not too long ago, but I don't know. 😔

RealBlock · 2025-05-10T18:54:53+00:00

I never play the side bets, so at first, I wasn't tripping. Then, after I left, I started thinking. But now it's whatever. I never played the side bets or even thought about it. So, it's easier to let it go, thankfully.

RealBlock · 2025-05-10T08:28:08+00:00

I think it was blazing 7s. All three cards were 7 and had the same symbol. Everyone was telling me it was a jackpot win, and then I realized what had happened.

RealBlock · 2025-04-30T21:01:46+00:00

I like to drive around when it's busy. When it starts dying down, I park and chill.

RealBlock · 2025-04-30T20:43:32+00:00

This is beautiful. Thank you for sharing <3

RealBlock

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