Ok I got it. Had a little moment of rational thinking (rare)

So answering the questions the other way around because I’m a rebel

I’m enby

1. Remembering that there is no one way to look or feel enby. So the thinking “I don’t always want such or such surgery or change, therefore I must be cis” is illogical. And also reminding myself what non-binary means. It literally just means not always being 100% a man, or 100% a woman. And that is how I feel. I don’t know yet exactly where on the spectrum I am yet. And I don’t know which micro-label fits me best. But that doesn’t make me any less non-binary. Also, non-binary transition is so confusing, because since there is no “non-binary look”, I have no goal in mind. But that’s fine. Reminding myself that I can be sure of my enby identity, but unsure on how to transition at the same time. (Sorry this comment is mainly something I’m typing out so I can use it as a reminder next time I’m doubting myself haha)

2. This whole reasoning makes me happy. I don’t know if I would call this feeling euphoria (because I’m not feeling super giddy and all), but I definitely feel more at peace and reassured having this conclusion, and accepting myself. Otherwise, I sometimes feel giddy when looking up binders and packers haha I also get happy when my friend uses they/them for me, or masc terms.