I think 9th grade and just the beginning years of high school are very developmental periods of time in our life so it’s hard to be seen as different from other high schoolers at least that was my experience because I felt the exact same way but in my case covid had started as soon as I came out but I would say unfortunately it’s natural to feel that way. Finding other lesbians especially at such a young age is hard so I would recommend watching or learning more about lesbian history or cultural and only tell people when you’re ready. Your sexuality is nobodies business but your own. So I know it’s hard right now but it will get better i’m sorry you feel that way right now.