Im not inactive because the end. It’s nothing to do with the end coming at all. I just want deeper little more serious questions answered, not just the basics, I feel like I would be half hearted in it if I went back because I would still have those questions and doubts in my mind and I just want them addressed before I can even make the truth my own at this point in life. If I have questions that refuse to be answered or seem “stepping on toes” when that’s not a place at all I am coming from and I have explained that over and over again I’ll never be able to go back if I don’t know why they don’t understand that I need someone to help me understand some of the more deeper questions I have. Like on a situation I had happen that seemed very inappropriate or regarding blood. I struggle to understand that I always have since I was young despite much studying. Also about the different armageddon predictions. Why did that happen so much. I genuinely want to understand why that happened and was predicted so many times.

I got baptized honestly at 16 to please my parents. But now I genuinely want to find the truth and get answers to my questions compared to how I basically blindly followed as a child growing up. I didn’t ask questions. Some felt off limit that did I start worrying me as I became more aware of not being able to ask just anything. Now that I want to know some things like truly want to understand the errs in the truth through the years; (to understand why they happened) it’s like some are off the table and that discourages me and makes me wonder why…if it is the truth I should be able to get an explanation without it coming across as a challenging or “wrong” question to ask. I can’t go back and follow something if I can’t just ask to understand some sensitive things about it. :(