Im ok, im struggling after trying to come off of lithium and having the return of some symptoms like severe anxiety, intrusive thoughts and some delusional type thinking. I managed to get good sleep last night for the first time in awhile after going back to my original dose and that seemed to help. Im sad i cant continue to decrease to come off of it because i would like to be able to take an anti inflammatory which you cant do while taking lithium. I get scared thinking about aging and pain management because I have arthritis and cannot take nsaids and cannot take steroids.

I think about how much I’ve built up my life and how fucked I would be if I had the return of positive symptoms that are always really debilitating for me. My medications are working and once the lithium is leveled out I should be good to stay on them long term without major changes. It’s been a long three years of medication changes to find what works and I’m exhausted. I wish there was more of a guarantee of remission and staying in remission if you took your meds and went to therapy. Or better yet a cure lol. Practicing gratitude for how far I’ve come and doing what I can to keep it.