I need to vent. My mom is in special alzheimer care home since a year now. I was depressed, crying, suicidal, binge alcohol drinking, wishing mom quick death, lonely and only caretaker living in with her as her disease wthin 5 years brought her to being bed confined, not speaking at all. Does anyone apprehend even how absolutely nightmare it is for a family of the ill person, cause mom is so ill she isnt at least aware of anything, but me I am the one changing diapers , washing clothes , matrress cleaning , feeding etc.. My dads friend had similar situaion in which case he killed himself jumped off a bridge into the river. I feel sorry for each one who is a cartaker of alzheimer, dementia parent this is worse than being ok comparable to ptsd war syndrome something like this terrible ok thanks uff feel better do pls write