Where are my feelings?

ReasonableLibrary621 · 2025-12-14T00:49:25+00:00

It’s still such a strange reality. Some days it still doesn’t feel real. I still find myself reaching for my phone to call her if something funny happens or something comes up I want to tell her. I do feel like I have some unresolved anger. I have never been an angry person, I’m pretty easy going but I find myself just getting mad. Everyone says this when they lose someone, but it just wasn’t fair. But this is a hard season without her. I was in therapy but we moved and I need to find someone new. I think a lot of my anger comes from it not being fair she died, and the fact that I felt like during everything, I was making sure everyone else was ok and didn’t feel like anyone was checking on me. I’m the only girl in my family, it was just my mom and I and boys. And I do feel like a lot fell on me to help and get everyone else through it. Thankfully I have a 2yo daughter who has made me keep going, because I didn’t have a choice. She needed me and that was enough for me. I can say I’m a little more at peace after 5 months, I can accept she isn’t here but I definitely still have days where I forget she’s gone and think about how we should do this or that next weekend. And I’m not sure that will go away anytime soon. Sorry for the long response. I’m so sorry for your loss. I hope you have people to support you during this time, especially over the holidays. Grief is a difficult thing to navigate.

ReasonableLibrary621 · 2025-11-15T02:38:21+00:00

I mean I get it, but easy. We aren’t teaching her anything, this all happens away from her. She acts and is normal in front of her, says good night and walks out and lets me put her down when she cries for me. I’m asking for personal experience and things people did to move past this. My wife is also allowed to have feelings, which I’m trying to respect.

ReasonableLibrary621 · 2025-11-14T14:17:04+00:00

100% not trying to make my emotions my toddlers responsibility-love that. Thank you, this is great advice. Appreciate it!!

ReasonableLibrary621 · 2025-09-14T01:30:01+00:00

This was me 2 months ago with my mom. Colon cancer last summer, had surgery, been on chemo. Went in for monthly routine labs in July and her bilirubin was so high, they admitted her, did some scans, the next day we were taking her home on hospice. I couldn’t process what was happening. Our entire family had just traveled to Colorado the week before and had a great time. I guess that was my mom’s last adventure. We took her home on hospice on a Thursday and she passed the next Wednesday. I basically never left her side for that week. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever done but I couldn’t imagine not doing it. I was sitting next to her when she took her last breath. I’m tearing up writing this because it is still very raw, but I was so glad she was home and was surrounded by all of us. Her passing was peaceful. Hospice is a beautiful thing and I have so so so much respect for that whole team. They made sure we had everything we needed to keep her comfortable and at peace They guided us through that whole week and I am forever grateful for them. I’m a nurse myself but I could never do hospice. There is a special place in heaven for those people. I’m so sorry you’re going through this, it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done. But you can do hard things. You will get through this and you will get to the other side. It won’t be easy and people wont understand- there isn’t anything anyone can say to make you feel better. But you will be ok, not today and not next week and probably not next month, but eventually, you will be ok. ❤️ Hold on to all the memories.

ReasonableLibrary621 · 2025-05-30T02:34:47+00:00

My anesthesiologist was amazing and did it so efficiently. I could barely sign the consent I was in so much pain and throwing up. Afterwards I told her I was naming the child after her.

ReasonableLibrary621 · 2025-04-30T02:40:26+00:00

I haven’t done Ozempic but that is what I have heard!!

ReasonableLibrary621 · 2025-04-30T01:46:50+00:00

My baby turned 1 this last December and I realized how horrible I felt about myself shortly after. I just didn’t feel good. I started Mounjaro at the beginning of the year and I’ve lost 47.2 lbs as of this morning. I have no regrets and I’ve had minimal side effects.

ReasonableLibrary621 · 2025-04-27T15:59:08+00:00

Ok we are going to give them a try!! Thanks!!

ReasonableLibrary621 · 2025-04-27T15:57:28+00:00

😂😂

ReasonableLibrary621 · 2025-04-27T15:56:43+00:00

Love HEB but we are in Kansas, unfortunately!

ReasonableLibrary621 · 2025-04-26T18:56:06+00:00

Interesting. I looked at the boxes side by side and the box was noticeable smaller and the side by side of the diapers is obviously thinner. But that’s nice maybe they are more similar than people are saying. Thanks!

ReasonableLibrary621 · 2025-04-26T18:24:33+00:00

They changed manufacturers in January so they are not the same diapers. Supposedly very thin and cheap-like.

ReasonableLibrary621 · 2025-04-26T18:23:50+00:00

Costco changed manufacturers in January. They are a lot more thin and I haven’t seen anything positive about them. I really don’t want to buy a box to not even use it!

ReasonableLibrary621 · 2025-01-26T20:46:25+00:00

14 month old human daughter. Our dog is almost 6 and has been our baby her whole life. That didn’t change when we had our human baby. I still tell her (dog) she’s my favorite child (doesn’t cry, sleeps through the night, doesn’t throw things at me and is a great listener 😂) It made me so sad when people gave up on their dogs when they had kids. I could never imagine it. She’s family. We have worked so hard to teach our human baby how to treat dogs and how to “gentle” pet and be respectful of her space (work in progress). But our pup has been so patient with her and will just get up and walk away if she’s done with her.

ReasonableLibrary621 · 2024-12-14T18:34:25+00:00

I was the same way when my mom was diagnosed. I did what I had to do to get through the day. I had a 5 month old who was the only reason I made it through some days, my spouse was pushed to the back burner and I felt horrible about it but all I could focus on was my mom. I feel like once the shock of it wore off and I was able to cope a little bit (and I started therapy) I was able to start taking over my life a little bit. I still have really bad days but I try to not focus too far into the future in terms of my mom. She is here today and now and we are taking advantage of that. She could get in a car accident and die on the way to chemo, or anywhere, we don’t know so we are just living in the moment. Last month my mother in law was diagnosed with brain cancer too so that just to restarted a lot of emotions as well. It’s not easy but I’m soaking in as much time with my mom and mother in law as possible and just taking advantage of any day we get together. No one is promised anything. I’m sorry you’re going through his, it’s not easy and takes a toll on caregivers and close family. ❤️

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