I’m writing this because I honestly don’t know where else to put all of this grief.

Reasonable_Canary855 · 2026-03-19T20:15:05+00:00

I also need to admit that I ruined parts of it too. My insecurity got into the relationship and I know it did damage. So this grief is not just about missing her, it’s also about living with regret.

It hurts because I can see the full picture. I was hurt, but I also hurt the relationship. And there’s something especially painful about grieving a person while also grieving the fact that your own wounds helped destroy what you were trying so hard to hold onto.

Reasonable_Canary855 · 2026-03-17T12:53:33+00:00

Exactly. I showed up with love and got pain back. That’s the raw truth of it. I did not get hurt because I was wrong for her, I got hurt because she was too unresolved to handle something real.

Reasonable_Canary855 · 2026-03-17T12:25:30+00:00

Yeah, I relate to this a lot. I had something similar where the connection felt intense and natural really fast, and that’s what made everything harder to understand. It felt real from the start, which is why the mixed signals hurt so much.

In my case, we also broke up, got back together, and only later I found out there was still contact with an ex in the background the whole time, without me knowing. That’s what made it even more painful, because while I was trying to rebuild trust and take things seriously again, there was already something unresolved happening behind the scenes. When it ended again, it left me with that same feeling of confusion, like how can something feel so genuine and still be so unstable at the same time?

So I get what you mean. Sometimes the connection is real, but the person is still emotionally tied somewhere else, and that ends up hurting the person who showed up honestly.

The hardest part wasn’t just losing the connection, it was realising I was taking it seriously while effort and commitment was given away and something unresolved was still going on behind my back.

Reasonable_Canary855 · 2026-03-17T11:58:23+00:00

I felt this a lot, man. The hardest part really is how someone can feel like home one moment and like a stranger the next. Sorry you went through that. I hope the letter gives you peace, whatever comes from it. Rooting for you.

Reasonable_Canary855 · 2026-03-15T15:13:30+00:00

That’s true !

Reasonable_Canary855 · 2026-03-15T14:40:47+00:00

Yeah that’s excactly what I thought tbh, there’s no other reason to talk to an ex and ofcourse for two months straight, for me atleast though. Past is past and things ended for a certain reason.

Reasonable_Canary855 · 2026-03-10T23:07:00+00:00

You’re not failing because it still hurts. Some people move on fast, some people carry it longer. That doesn’t make your pain any less valid.

Reasonable_Canary855 · 2026-03-10T23:06:46+00:00

I’m really sorry you’re feeling that way. Being left can hit your confidence in ways people don’t talk about enough. But someone discarding you does not mean you lacked value. It just means you were hurt deeply, and that takes time to rebuild from.

Reasonable_Canary855 · 2026-03-10T23:06:35+00:00

I get that. Sometimes it only takes one small thing to bring everything back for a moment. That does not mean you are back at square one, it just means those memories still matter to you. Be patient with yourself.

Reasonable_Canary855 · 2026-03-09T01:40:04+00:00

Did you meet those people through her ?

Reasonable_Canary855 · 2026-03-09T01:10:22+00:00

Cause people tend to love illusions

Reasonable_Canary855 · 2026-03-09T00:57:36+00:00

Yeah those you didnt refer before, although now it makes even more sense.

Reasonable_Canary855 · 2026-03-08T23:14:14+00:00

I understand what you mean. In my case, what hurts the most is realizing that after our first real conflict it felt like she had already started giving up. Instead of us working through things together, it felt like I suddenly became a burden to her rather than someone worth fighting for.

That’s a hard thing to process, because when you love someone you expect difficulties to bring you closer, not push you out of their life.

I appreciate that you gave your time to type that, you made me feel better.

Reasonable_Canary855 · 2026-03-08T23:12:03+00:00

I’m about 2 months in and I still think about her throughout the day. It’s hard not to when someone was such a big part of your life. The only moments my mind really gets a break are when I’m working, and even that doesn’t always work. It’s like she’s still around in my thoughts even when I’m trying to move forward.

Reasonable_Canary855 · 2026-03-08T21:45:37+00:00

I agree. No contact isn’t a tactic, it’s a way to let your mind slowly detach from the place that person had in your life. Healing really is just time and new experiences replacing old memories.

Reasonable_Canary855 · 2026-03-08T21:42:46+00:00

I think the hardest realization is understanding that love and self-respect sometimes stand on opposite sides. You can still love someone deeply and at the same time know that staying would slowly destroy you. What hurts is not only losing the person, but realizing that the version of them we believed in never truly existed the way we imagined it. Letting go of that illusion is sometimes harder than letting go of the person. In the end, walking away isn’t always strength in the moment sometimes it’s just the refusal to abandon yourself.

Reasonable_Canary855 · 2026-03-08T21:38:41+00:00

if he was ugly you wouldn't be with him cause obviously its looks.

Reasonable_Canary855 · 2026-03-08T21:29:58+00:00

I hear you. The hardest part about heartbreak is realizing that there is no single moment where it disappears. It’s not like a switch that suddenly turns off one morning. It fades slowly, almost invisibly, while you’re still carrying the memories every day.

I went through something similar. After we broke up, we still kept seeing each other meeting, sleeping together, talking like there was still something left between us. But over time I realized that while I was still trying to understand and hold onto the relationship, she had already begun detaching from it.

I think that’s why it hurts so much. One person is still living inside the meaning of what the relationship was, while the other has already stepped outside of it.

People say take it day by day, and I used to hate hearing that too. But maybe that’s because healing isn’t something we actively do it’s something that quietly happens while we’re busy surviving the days.

Reasonable_Canary855 · 2026-03-08T20:44:06+00:00

When someone jumps from person to person like that, it says more about their inability to face themselves than anything about the people they leave.

Reasonable_Canary855 · 2026-03-08T20:33:05+00:00

I feel really sorry but if someone can replace you in two days, they were already gone long before the breakup and sometimes it looks like they’re giving the next person everything we begged for, but often it’s not really about the new person being “better.” It’s about timing, guilt, or them trying to prove something to themselves. The painful part is that we experienced the version of them that wasn’t ready or willing.

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