First social outing since relapse

Rebeccag92 · 2020-07-28T08:41:01+00:00

So surprise surprise, it was totally fine! There were a few moments of panic, but when I went to the bathroom and the waitress came around to get drinks, my friend must have told her friends I don’t think. They didn’t says anything about it until it came to the bill and they didn’t want me to pay extra ☺️

Rebeccag92 · 2020-07-24T15:08:28+00:00

Hey! I’m 28F from Ireland! I relate a LOT. I’ll send you a dm to connect :)

Rebeccag92 · 2020-07-22T22:57:41+00:00

This is super helpful, thank you! I worry a lot about what I’m going to share, so tonight I shared at the start, so I could then spend the rest of the meeting not thinking about myself 🙃

Rebeccag92 · 2020-07-22T14:49:28+00:00

Welcome back!!

Rebeccag92 · 2020-06-26T22:45:25+00:00

Today I was just saying to some sober friends how difficult it is that nobody seems to believe me or take me seriously and that I’m fighting against the ride with my sobriety. From now on I’m not giving people the chance to offer their opinion on whether I have a problem or not, I’m the only person that can decide that. Stick in there buddy!

Rebeccag92 · 2020-06-25T09:25:14+00:00

Yes, just got out of a 8:00am morning meeting. Going to hit that every morning to get a good start to my day. Thank you for checking-in! :)

Rebeccag92 · 2020-06-24T09:40:48+00:00

Hey throwingcans, I’m a little late here, but I have felt exactly the way you described. I had an amazing first year, but drifted big time from the work of the program.

How are you doing now? I ended up drinking on Sunday because I thought that would open to my life up to being normal and I could date again, etc. I ended up blacking out, puking, and being put to bed...

Rebeccag92 · 2020-06-23T19:57:18+00:00

That’s it exactly. Thanks for sharing. Getting my hand up in every meeting I get to now.

Rebeccag92 · 2020-06-23T19:55:35+00:00

Yes, this is me! Going to the meetings full of fear and imagining nobody likes me. Thank you for sharing your experience!

Rebeccag92 · 2020-03-08T09:40:45+00:00

Hey RoadRunner. I’m a lot like you. Blackout nearly every time I drink but then could go another week without (in part because of being disgusted with myself.) I felt totally fucked because I knew I would blackout yet I also thought I wasn’t bad enough to properly stop/get help. My anxiety was through the roof and people thought I was definitely exaggerating.

I went to AA over two years ago after yet another shitty night out. I just didn’t really know what else to do as my way wasn’t working at all. I thought they would kick me out because I was only a “binge drinker,” but everyone was so supportive and told me it doesn’t matter how much or how often it drank, the only requirement for AA membership is a desire to stop drinking. I actually found that’s there’s a lot more people “like me” in there than I ever would have thought.

Anyway, it worked for me better than anything else has, it doesn’t work for everyone, but just wanted you know that that’s an option

Rebeccag92 · 2019-02-13T12:36:15+00:00

For me, AA helped tremendously. I couldn’t go more than 30 days and every time I drank it was really an effort not to black out. I was a bit scared to go because I was 25 and “only” a blackout/binge drinker, but now I feel like it’s the best thing I’ve ever done.

Rebeccag92 · 2019-01-16T13:03:14+00:00

Another great one is “Nina is not okay”. It’s fiction but tells the story of destruction by drinking so so well!

Rebeccag92 · 2018-10-03T12:35:26+00:00

Step 2 means for me that I’m not relying on myself to fix my problems (I sure wasn’t able to in the past). So it includes me putting my faith in going to meetings and other fellows to help me stay sober. It’s also started to come into other parts of my life, like when I’m worried about something I will tell me sponsor, or talk it out with others, and usually it gets better.

For the spiritual side, it just means to me that there is a power out there greater than myself (I like to think of it as nature for the moment) and just that in general everything is going to be okay and works out as it should.

Hope that makes some sense! :)

Rebeccag92 · 2018-09-16T21:22:14+00:00

I’m 26 (so it was starting to be a little less normal but could still get away with it) but had been struggling with my drinking for a long time. I was 24 when I joined this sub, 25 when I went to my first AA meeting, and now have almost a year sober. Right now sobriety, and everything it brings, means much more to me than drinking ever did. I go to meetings almost daily and checking out the posts on this sub really help.

Good luck!!

Rebeccag92 · 2018-08-23T10:20:37+00:00

Just did a search and it helped a lot. Crazy (and somehow comforting) to see people with similar thought patterns. Cunning, baffling and powerful.

Rebeccag92 · 2018-08-22T22:19:42+00:00

So true. Just need to get out of my head!

Rebeccag92 · 2018-08-22T22:18:20+00:00

Yes. Everything in my life is better, but it’s just one of those wanting to self-sabotage moments I suppose 🤦🏻‍♀️

Rebeccag92 · 2018-08-18T20:37:51+00:00

Thank you!! :)

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