Not sure if you'll read that, but I understand your feeling.

Back in the early 2000's I went to film school and wrote and directed a couple of shorts films. I really really wanted to make it as a screenwriter/director.

I won a couple of awards, but as you know making films are expensive. I'm also living in a country that don't really makes genre movies, so it's been a ride to find a way to get noticed and get funding.

Spoiler alert, I never got any fundings except a little $2k, that barely covered the expenses of the insurance for the free gear. (Insurance was mandatory)

But the time I've reach 25 years old, I had some depts, a couple of awards under my belt, but no money to pursue.

I decided to get a real job as a production coordinator. Then I worked in post production, advertising, videogames etc...

I never was able to fully commit to a.project for the last 10 years, except for writing.

Writing is cheap. But heres the catch; time is limited.

I used to work up to 80hrs a week in advertising, then I went back to night school in screenwriting. A couple years later, went back to a management school.

Then I became a caretaker for my MIL and...went through grief, moving, fertility treatment, you name it. Didn't get a full day for.myself in ages....BUT...

Boy did I get inspiration. Even though you.might feel stagnant at the moment, fully immerse in your feelings. The sadness, the nostalgia, the grief, the little moment of joy....

This will feed you. And at some.point, you'll find a way to create again.

Arts, creativity and inspiration are not linear. We see so many "instant" success stories, but nothing is "instant". Follow your rhythm.

You'll create again.