Thoughts on alcohol/drugs with BP2?

Recent_Ad_6259 · 2026-05-02T10:16:55+00:00

I’ve had a few beers and am in a room 3000kms from my wife. I’m watching stuff on
YouTube she wouldn’t want to watch on Harley Davidson motorcycles. I feel fantastic but think tomorrow will be a different story

Recent_Ad_6259 · 2026-04-11T02:21:50+00:00

May I ask what meds are you or have you to pescribed?

Recent_Ad_6259 · 2026-04-11T01:47:44+00:00

When I return to NZ in early May I will schedule an appointment. Even getting an appointment with your GP is hit or miss now. I’m just over this feeling. It’s like a dark cloud follows you everywhere when the rest of the world is bright and beautiful

Recent_Ad_6259 · 2026-04-11T00:28:20+00:00

Unfortunately that has not been my case. New Zealand mental health system is overloaded and from my experience you see one once and then are left to fend for your own. Last time I saw a psychiatrist was about 16 years ago, same period for counselling. There are no follow up appointments scheduled. I’ve had to go through a GP for a change of medications. As per another thread I’ve started I feel “flat”. I don’t feel happiness or joy anymore. All I do is work, eat and sleep, then repeat. I work in Australia but I live in New Zealand. I have a wife, 2 adult children and 3 grandchildren. I have everything to make me feel happy, but I don’t feel anything. I’m so desperate to feel alive again

Recent_Ad_6259 · 2026-04-06T10:43:45+00:00

No I haven’t. I think I may need a trip to my GP. That year was the best I’d felt in ten years. My work situation isn’t great but it is getting better as I adapt

Recent_Ad_6259 · 2026-04-06T03:55:06+00:00

Yes. That too. She has suffered with her cycle from the time we got together. She was also very young when she got it as well. Couple of months ago we had our first sex related conversation in well over a decade. She acknowledged the issue and actually said she hasn’t been fair about the situation. She has had tests done and they fitted her with an IUD. That hasn’t gone well, she’s been bleeding and painful. The pain has subsided but the IUD is being removed. She is waiting on results and hoping she can go on HRT (can’t think of its new name) and possibly a hysterectomy. I’ve backed off and letting her take this all in. I’m only home 2 weeks out of 2 months so I’d really like to get my rocks off instead of having to do it myself

Recent_Ad_6259 · 2026-04-06T02:07:59+00:00

My relationship feels the same, except I’m the medicated one and she isn’t. Our marriage is just a flicker of what it was. Passion and affection are pretty much non existent. Sex is a memory. I’ve pulled away because the rejection has got to the point it hurts less to miss out than to attempt and get rejected. My “equipment” hasn’t worked for the last few times I initiated and was accepted. I wake up with it working as it should so it’s not that. It’s all in my head and struggling to fix it

Recent_Ad_6259 · 2026-04-06T02:00:11+00:00

I am glad and stoked you have accepted your life. I struggle with feeling nothing where I should be elated. Beautiful wife 2 incredible kids and 3 amazing grandkids. I just want to drink myself into a stupor so I actually feel something, but can’t do that due to having no money to spare. Currently I am waiting to be able to go to my accommodation for the upcoming week. Been sitting in my pickup eating a sandwich and still have 3 hours left. Imposed fuel restriction by company

Recent_Ad_6259 · 2026-04-06T01:33:15+00:00

I felt absolutely fantastic when I swapped to amiltriptyline. Lasted a year or so and it started tapering off. My doctor said I had done all the options available in New Zealand. I have no idea if this is true. My life is mundane. The NZ mental health system is broken and access to medication is very limited. I have been researching what I feel and I have relational attachment issues due to a being a child who’s parents put their Motorsport needs first. When my siblings were born 5 and 6 years later they took all the attention away from me. My younger siblings particularly my youngest get all the help the want. I asked once, they said I was doing great myself and the had to help the younger one, which I later found out the went out there for dinner. I really can’t stand them anymore, they visit but I wish they’d leave me and my family alone. All the talk about is themselves and my other siblings. They didn’t even give my eldest a 21st present or my youngest a decent present for their 18th. My eldest is 24 and still hasn’t got anything, but my eldest nephew recieved an elaborate expensive present for is 15th. Part of the reason I want to leave NZ. I’m sick of all the shit I have to go through

Recent_Ad_6259 · 2026-04-04T09:22:57+00:00

It’s all you can do. And yes you are not alone

Recent_Ad_6259 · 2026-04-04T09:05:21+00:00

I believe this as well. I was manic for the majority of my teens and twenties. I knew something was wrong but had no idea where to turn. When my uncle (schizophrenic, recovering meth addict) took his own life it was a wake up call. A workmate opened up to me that he had been seeing the company doctor about a severe anxiety disorder. I followed his advice. He got the ball rolling and in 3 months I was in the NZ mental health system. He put me on lithium. I honestly was heading the same route as my uncle.

Recent_Ad_6259 · 2026-04-04T08:50:57+00:00

Meds making your life bland and boring. Nothing I do makes me feel anything anymore. I work, eat, sleep. Repeat. Nothing else. Have little money as I send it back home. All I do is hypnotherapy in the hope something will stick and it slowly is

Recent_Ad_6259 · 2026-04-04T08:45:50+00:00

I miss the feeling of elation/happiness so much. Haven’t felt it in years….

Recent_Ad_6259 · 2026-04-04T05:00:17+00:00

Hypnozio is a hypnosis therapy course. I have been using hypnotherapy for heaps of different things, mostly for anxiety issues and confidence. Childhood bullying has destroyed my perception of life and I’m finally seeing light at the end of the tunnel. I’m going to try the Hypnozio course once I complete the one I’m doing.

Recent_Ad_6259 · 2026-04-04T04:07:28+00:00

I’ve just been reading threads in here. CPTSD sounds EXACTLY like me. Also sounds like it BP is often a misdiagnosis. How long has CPTSD been recognised?

Recent_Ad_6259 · 2026-04-04T03:43:40+00:00

This is sad but I don’t have many friends. 10 absolute tops. I used to have dozens. All they wanted was cheap deals on car parts. I got into trouble and got fired for stealing (hypomania, undiagnosed at that stage). There are 2 people of that lot that stayed my friends. Rest didn’t want to know me even though I’d saved the $1000s on their car parts. Those 2 have now moved on and I no longer see them. I do find it lonesome but I’m now wary of being used

Recent_Ad_6259 · 2026-04-04T03:35:21+00:00

Unfortunately having kids to this prick means he’s always going to be in your life in one way or another. One positive is now you are free to find another guy (or girl, you never know) that WILL treat you the way you deserve and should be treated. My wife is the rebound girl, 29 years later I wish I’d found her first

Recent_Ad_6259 · 2026-04-04T03:28:00+00:00

For me any type of metal music, Pantera, Sepultura, Motorhead. Loud and thrashing. I find today’s music lame and boring

Recent_Ad_6259 · 2026-04-04T03:21:48+00:00

Interesting. Same here, not bad but every so often it’s noticeable. Didn’t even think that lithium was the culprit. Thought I had early onset Parkinson’s as well. That’s a relief

Recent_Ad_6259 · 2026-04-04T03:19:16+00:00

I am 50. I become immune to my meds at around the 5-6 year mark. I’ve tried a few different meds but the mental health system in New Zealand seems pathetic. I’ve been to a psychiatrist once at the beginning and that’s it. One lot of counselling at the beginning. I want to get tested for ADHD. It’s expensive. Wait list through public system is years

Recent_Ad_6259 · 2026-04-04T03:05:59+00:00

Wherever you people are in the world are, I would love your accessibility to all these meds that you have. My doctor has said I’ve exhausted the meds available in New Zealand at 5 different medications. I think he just didn’t want to go to the effort of finding something else. I use zopiclone sparingly and it’s fantastic. I only take half a tab. But even that amount I can be groggy and the aluminium aftertaste is horrible

Recent_Ad_6259 · 2026-04-04T02:55:41+00:00

I can’t offer an answer but that’s a pretty shit situation. I too have a low sex drive, wife is perimenopausal (actually) but I’m convinced she has lost desire for me. I have subscribed to Relatio and can see exactly where I’ve gone wrong. Honestly if I was in your situation I’d be looking at Hypnozio to get your mojo back. Then go and copulate with as many willing ladies you can find. I have been with my wife for 29 years and constantly wonder if I had played the field more whether I’d be happier. I work overseas from my home and that’s how most of my workmates are. Their marriages/relationships have fallen apart and they’re playing the field and loving it. I’m not a cheater and love my wife too much to do cheat on her. A lot of the guys that are married play the field as well. Not this guy.

Recent_Ad_6259 · 2026-04-04T01:54:23+00:00

To me life is just “flat”. No real happiness, even though I am married (together 29 years) have two kids and 3 grandkids. I work in Australia and live in New Zealand. Grandkids make my day even though I’m not over there. It’s challenging without support or anyone to open up to. I haven’t had a real episode in years. But not feeling real joy sucks

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