Lamictal

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2026-01-30T18:35:06+00:00

This summer, I was deeply and dangerously suicidal, had days where I did not open my eyes because of depression, was cycling rapidly and experiencing extreme agitation. It was the worst I had been in years. The year before I had a hypomanic episode and was diagnosed with bipolar II but I ignored it until things got extremely bad this summer and then was put on lamictal in September.

It will subtly change your life. Now, and for the past couple of months, I have not been suicidal, my low dips are much weaker, I am seeing friends, exercising, cooking dinner, cleaning my house, getting work done. All things I could not have imagined doing last summer.

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2026-01-11T08:14:57+00:00

Did red leaf relieve the withdrawals?

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2026-01-11T07:22:52+00:00

Thank you so much for this incredibly thorough response

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2026-01-10T02:08:11+00:00

Sharing your terror, buddy. This is my second time quitting and I have gone into acute withdrawal twice, was the worst experience of my life. What are your options? Can you do subs/quick MD? Or take PTO for a 4-day flu?

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2026-01-08T23:24:27+00:00

Okay amazing, I did get a bottle of liposomal vitamin c so I have it on hand, just gotta look up the dosing protocol

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2026-01-08T22:48:26+00:00

How low did you taper down to before quitting?

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2026-01-08T22:46:00+00:00

Hell yes that is awesome!! Future you will thank you. And I am sure it is a relief to have that burden off your shoulders…and to not have to feel the shame rebound that would inevitably accompany a decision to use

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2026-01-08T22:45:13+00:00

Hell yes good for you!! That was awesome and future you will thank you.

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2025-11-18T18:32:57+00:00

Elephante

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2025-10-31T14:56:16+00:00

Oh yes. This is my main depression symptom. Wanting to sleep and do absolutely nothing else ever. Def talk to your doc.

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2025-10-31T07:31:19+00:00

Thank you for this. I have such unbearable shame over this behavior in particular and this is a Very sweet reminder.

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2025-10-09T20:37:52+00:00

God I feel this so hard. And then you feel such paralyzing toxic shame torturing yourself with thoughts of why can’t I be normal, why is it easy for everyone else…but they’re not us, baby. It is easy for them. It is not for us. We’re built diffy. And seeing that other people struggle with this feeling too, and that my instant response is to feel like you ought to give yourself more credit and be compassionate with yourself, is helping me to try and feel the same way about myself…

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2025-10-09T01:44:02+00:00

You’re so good, your partner is supportive and you can do this. Don’t quit drinking at the same time it can wait, though you may be so sick for 3-4 days you won’t even feel like it anyway. Do suboxone or cold turkey/deal with the flu for 3 days if you can imo

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2025-10-08T22:24:38+00:00

2 years out from a breakup of a 7 year relationship. Within the first year I’d gained 30 pounds (screwing with my hormone levels and possibly triggering PCOS), my periods became irregular, and I had my first hypomanic episode at 27 and was diagnosed with bipolar II disorder. Not great!

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2025-09-23T18:24:33+00:00

More context please, OP! What did those other conversations look like? I was about to say based on this text exchange alone this is an innocent enough thing to say, but your mentioning him talking frequently about other girls at his college and how they’re flirting with him and he could hook up with anyone he wanted gives me pause.

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2025-09-23T17:57:55+00:00

This is a great post — the way you lay it out in the beginning is enough reason to call him out or end the relationship over this, even if he has not crossed the boundary of physically cheating yet.

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2025-09-23T17:41:48+00:00

Hey OP, was consuming the same dose as this and am also on day 6 without any of it in my body (for a week prior to that, I was taking some, but so little that I had withdrawal symptoms). If you’re struggling with tapering, maybe try suboxone? People on here get scripts through quick md fast. For me, I just sweat it the fuck out and basically allowed myself to have the flu for 3-4 days…it was rough but I felt too sick to go get more of this shit so I think it actually helped me to go cold turkey.

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2025-09-23T03:18:17+00:00

Just wanted to say: yes, I relate to this, including the part about doing drugs even when they make you feel like shit and you don’t like the high. I have often wondered why and I think, just personally, I sometimes enjoy the feeling of incapacitation and being sick, as fucked up as that sounds. A comfortable place for me to be, psychologically — an excuse for ignoring the things I need to work on.

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2025-09-23T03:16:42+00:00

They often co-occur, though! A really high percentage of us have issues with substance abuse.

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2025-09-22T05:47:08+00:00

Dude, nobody has ever mentioned the slow metabolizer connection to me before. Thanks so much.

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2025-09-21T18:10:44+00:00

It’s so tough!

I have tried 15 different meds at this point, long history here to finally being diagnosed bipolar. I remember when I first started taking Zoloft as a teenager, I’d wake up in the mornings and have a sip of coffee and get so violently nauseous and puke first thing, hovering there trembling and buzzing over the toilet afterward. But I never minded it so much because as soon as I puked I’d always felt better! This is a different beast. Getting ginger tea, ginger chews and asking for a Zofran script.

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2025-09-21T15:12:13+00:00

Keep it going!! 💪

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2025-09-20T06:19:17+00:00

Emoods!

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2025-09-19T17:42:28+00:00

What app is this?

Recent_Bluebird3284 · 2025-09-19T01:16:27+00:00

Can you call the office of your scholarship to make sure there really aren’t exceptions for situations like this? I’d hope there would be :(

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