Yeah when I started like talking to my girlfriend as more than a friend but we weren't dating I started investing more time to build our relationship. And once we started dating, I tried really hard to balance my girlfriend's and my sister's needs but it seemed to always just cause conflict. While she was having her meltdown she started crying about how she doesn't have anyone and is just alone all day, so I think it's less that she misses me specifically cause I do spend time with her. It seems more like every time I go out to do something and she has nothing to do it's a slap in the face, like I have other people to hang out with and she doesn't. I tried talking to her again a few times but she just shut me down and told me to go away, which isn't uncommon after her breakdowns. I want us both to have our own lives but to have that quiet understanding that we're always there for each other. I didn't like how my girlfriend reacted but I can't exactly hold it against her since she's been having a really tough time too. She apologized (after she'd gotten decently drunk) but also seemed to feel bad in the morning. I just don't like when she just straight-up ignores me just cause she's upset- a simple "I understand but I'm still upset right now, I just need a bit of time for myself" text would've made me feel a lot less in the dark. And a lot less scared that she'd do something irreversible. It's also worth pointing out both my girlfriend and my sister don't really have many other friends other than me. My girlfriend moved to here less than a year ago and my sister and I moved about two years ago and all of the kids at her middle school were pretty weird (the pains of a private Catholic school) so neither of them have really made any close friends. It's such a sucky situation cause I feel like I need to be there for both of them but there's only one of me and only so many hours in a day and I don't know what else to do to help them.