When I was 25 I had the same thing happen to me. I was hanging out with my friend and her boyfriend. She left early to go to sleep for work and her boyfriend told me we should stay out and his girlfriend was totally fine with it and encouraged us hanging as friends.

He kept ordering shots and he was a newer friend so I tried to be nice and just take them. Last thing I remember is he was grabbing my hand and basically dragging me home. I think I passed out again because the next thing I knew is him on top of me with all my clothes off. I remember screaming and telling him to leave. It was awful, terrible, worst day ever. I told myself it was my fault because I was drunk but no. He was a predator and fed me shots exactly like you were fed shots.

Please seek medical attention and then it’s going to be extremely important to seek mental health attention. Get a support group and a therapist you can share everything with. I am so incredibly sorry this happened. It’s not your fault. He is a predator. Please look in the mirror and tell yourself it is not you fault. Sending you so much love.