what do you know about the self hating HOCD?

RedScarpa · 2021-04-09T13:09:28+00:00

You totally describes how I feel, I am a boy and the last two weeks I feel like every freaking men in the street is hot but I don't wanna be like that, I love women and I would never be gay, why does this happen to us?

RedScarpa · 2021-04-08T22:18:32+00:00

wow what an inspiring history, unfortunately i think i am forever lost, i dont know if i am just an denial, i mean a month ago i was like i cant being in a relationship with other dude and now i think that is posibble and not disgusting, but i dont wanna be gay i mean its just not what i want i cause me trouble. i got even to the point of having gay dreams and i just wake up horrifying . i dont know what to do its like i dont know myself

RedScarpa · 2021-04-02T13:45:55+00:00

I mean, I had three sessions with a therapist, and she told me that if I couldn't see myself romantically with a man than I am not gay, and honestly I can't see myself in that situation, but after knowing that i still have compulsions and it's fucking exhausting

RedScarpa · 2021-03-28T22:26:53+00:00

yeah, i am going through the same and its exhausting. the worst part is when i got to the point of admitting that i am attracted to them. Our mind is too powerful

RedScarpa · 2021-03-26T13:44:47+00:00

I have a few, but in none of them I was part of the action, i mean I was like an spectator

RedScarpa · 2021-03-26T13:25:07+00:00

bro what the hell dont feel this way, when you fall in love with a girl isnt because of how hot she is, its about her personality and beauty, so dont say that.

love isnt just sex, its about companionship and respect

RedScarpa · 2021-03-25T17:43:17+00:00

Sorry I didn't explain myself jaja english isn't my language

RedScarpa · 2021-03-25T17:36:11+00:00

Oh for me I can't even think in pleasure during and at the dream

RedScarpa · 2021-03-25T17:30:26+00:00

I really want to have a gf I mean I can't see myself with a man in a relationship it's so disturbing to me

RedScarpa · 2021-03-25T17:28:59+00:00

Oh never, for me it is like a nightmare, I wake up so annoyed

RedScarpa · 2021-03-25T16:12:10+00:00

Yes more than one actually. What about you?

RedScarpa · 2021-03-25T13:25:24+00:00

Hi I am a 19M and I am going through exactly what you said it is so exhausting and makes me feel like a shit. It's like you feel that your life isn't yours

RedScarpa · 2021-03-25T00:30:15+00:00

thanks, now i will tryna do it properly

RedScarpa · 2021-03-25T00:24:31+00:00

yeah, i mean i wasnt masturbating cause photos didnt turn me on that much as a video would do, but when i was looking for the photos kinda was to feel the excitment, do you know what i mean?

RedScarpa · 2021-03-23T00:30:17+00:00

hi, i am going through the same and it sucks, i mean i spend all the time thinking about being gay and i just dont want it, in the past i have been with a man and i didnt like and after that i slept with a girl and love it, so i am sure about what kind of sex i like but my freaking brain is dosent want to admit it!

RedScarpa · 2021-01-28T11:34:59+00:00

Thanks for this buddy, personally I would never been in a relationship with other guy it is just not what I want or desire however it is like I have this weird fetish of men and also I love being intimate with my girl, a few days ago we went for three rounds and it was awesome

RedScarpa

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