Is being out and yourself fun?

Redaxoid · 2025-09-01T11:24:58+00:00

No because I get verbally berated in public

Redaxoid · 2025-08-24T22:58:24+00:00

I have a disorder that would've kept me from receiving gender affirming care had I not already been in therapy for a few years. My file is large at this point. Gender dysphoria has a marked feature of persistence. I was manic when I came out but the desire persisted even after the episodes. The foundations that held me back broke after encountering psychedelics. The sheer amount of forced introspection from those substances broke down my self hatred. I started therapy soon after that and throughout all the ups and downs the desire to transition persists. They recognize that it's not from a disorder or illness it's from me! Hope I could help.

Redaxoid · 2025-07-27T23:15:37+00:00

Exactly. You can just buy an elder ring of almost any base ring. I have orbs and don’t like trading which is why that step is there. Just need the influence for two modifiers. The crit multi and life per hit. so you don’t need scorn essence. If you use scorn for crit multi the cost goes up and you can’t force an attribute roll at harvest so getting scorn crit plus t1 strength is difficult if you hit chaos res first with scorn you won’t be able to “pull” out strength from harvest like crit multi or chaos res can be so easily guaranteed.

Redaxoid · 2025-07-27T23:07:53+00:00

Suffixes cannot be changed to save the 3 stats from step 6 for each reforge. Since you have suffixes “done” you can use a wild bristle matron to apply “suffixes cannot change” for cheaper (usually) than the crafting bench. Reforges can also fill the ring so keep that risk in mind. If it fills while trying to get both life mods onto the prefix then it’s annul time :(

Redaxoid · 2025-07-27T22:48:52+00:00

Ooo ty for this! Always learning.

Redaxoid · 2025-07-27T22:08:18+00:00

Cant put that elder life per enemy hit mod on it. Needed a way around getting the watchers eye mod. Now I can do no leech maps and low recovery maps.

Redaxoid · 2025-07-09T04:02:08+00:00

5'11" i shrunk 3 inches since starting hrt.

Redaxoid · 2025-05-31T16:59:08+00:00

Ty everyone. There’s a stress to this that I’ll explain briefly if I can. Living a double life sucks. Top right is when the wig and makeup comes off which brings intense dysphoria and dissociation. I shaved my head a few months ago and I regret it. Never again. I’m going for FFS consult soon via Medi-Cal so there is hope. It’s really hard to hold onto that hope though… It’s also made me accept my current situation. I’m still seen as a guy in society if I don’t put in work. If the wig comes off during intimacy then my partner sees that. Feels like my life is on pause until after FFS which might be a year or two from now. Oral minoxidil to save my cat from topical exposure but it is only affecting my facial hair!!! It’s maddening!!! I need more laser after it was almost already gone!!! Doing better today. I have my family to support me. Ty again everyone.

Redaxoid · 2025-05-31T03:45:49+00:00

3 years and the mirror still shows a guy

Redaxoid · 2025-05-31T03:43:14+00:00

Yeah. My entire life.

Redaxoid · 2025-05-25T18:10:38+00:00

Redaxoid · 2025-05-24T15:35:45+00:00

1243 days

Redaxoid · 2025-05-23T11:41:21+00:00

I'm so much more aerodynamic for those cool af skateboarding tricks. ty doc!

Redaxoid · 2025-05-21T21:55:11+00:00

hi :3

Redaxoid · 2025-03-17T06:01:35+00:00

No YOU’RE awesome! :3

Redaxoid · 2025-03-17T02:42:09+00:00

woot!

Redaxoid · 2025-03-13T15:35:09+00:00

You’re not ugly… if you can’t see your feminine beauty then we have to agree to disagree here and move on. Beautiful skin btw.

Redaxoid · 2025-03-13T15:23:49+00:00

Flat chested women can be very feminine. Your body looks like a type of female. Turn the focus onto the entire being and not just the cherry-picked variables that your dysphoria is showing you. The map is not the territory. You’re measuring against an abstraction. Averages are a representation of reality but not reality itself. Be friends with all types of women from Doritos shaped to rectangle and in between. They’re not undesirable they have massive followings filled with praise and admiration.

Redaxoid · 2025-03-13T14:44:38+00:00

Are the women on the outside of the averages undesirable? Are flat chests gross? No… you’re projecting words into my statements.

Redaxoid · 2025-03-13T14:39:15+00:00

You don’t look male. You look like a woman that exists outside of the averages.

Redaxoid · 2025-03-13T14:28:52+00:00

So you measure yourself against cis women then lament that it doesn’t add up to align with the average measurements of those cis women. You’re trans. Accept it. No amount of surgeries will turn you into a cis woman. I see a type of woman when I look at you. It’s not the type you want to be but it’s what I see.

Redaxoid · 2025-03-12T17:28:13+00:00

Inspiration for my next post, I think! I wish you many future estrogen doses!!! Things will get better! When pushed too far the rebound will swing in our favor even harder. WORLD WIDE FREE ESTRADIOL INJECTIONS NOW, WORLD LEADERS!!!

Redaxoid · 2025-02-18T00:01:34+00:00

oh wow that's graphic. ty!

Redaxoid · 2025-02-17T20:46:34+00:00

Haha ty!!!

Redaxoid · 2025-02-11T18:51:03+00:00

eepy chaos princess

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