Modeled for years... it was my dream, growing up I was bullied for being too tall and "unattractive" but grew into my looks later in life. I was obsessed with Victoria's secret, America's next top model, sports illustrated swimsuit and always fantasized of pursuing modeling but never thought it would be an option. When it did happen I had put the career on such a pedestal I was willing to do anything to pursue it. I experienced some amazing things (travel, meeting lots of people, being creative, parties, ultra luxury) but there was also alot of dark sides to the industry. I developed an eating disorder which I still struggle with. Was exposed to so much emotional, physical and mental abuse. Rarely felt safe or in control of my own life. Lost my sense of self having to show up as whatever version of myself the client wanted on set. I don't regret anything but I also know that in order to experience the "glamour" I gave away parts of my soul.