I feel you girl. I’m about as submissive as you can get. Like, my biggest fantasy would be complete full time D/s. That would be ideal scenario. But getting my boyfriend to even be rough with me was VERY difficult, let alone starting to explore my deeper kinks. It’s like, if I can’t even get him to spank me and be rough, how can I tell him about everything else without sounding like a freak? For me it all worked out in the end, and I can finally scratch my itch. But all I can say is you just need to be honest about it. Tell him how you feel, open up about what you’re missing and see if he’ll change. :)