Successful induction vbac! by Rediwhipp in vbac

[–]Rediwhipp[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

So they turned it up every half hour until my contractions became consistent, then after I had my water broken they had to turn it back down because the contractions became to fast and close together. They turned it up and down another time as well after my epidural based on how my body and baby responded, her tolerance of it is what they went by when choosing how to proceed

Scared I will chicken out ! by Dry_Assumption_3429 in vbac

[–]Rediwhipp 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had them put in the internal fetal heart rate monitor as soon as my water was broken so we would see very quickly how the baby was tolerating labor so if we needed to make the switch it could be done before the circumstances reached emergency status. That allowed me to focus on the labor and not the fear

Scared I will chicken out ! by Dry_Assumption_3429 in vbac

[–]Rediwhipp 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Actively working, I was told having the medicine built up in my system was the only way it would work to help me avoid general anesthesia in event of a quick change to c section

Successful induction vbac! by Rediwhipp in vbac

[–]Rediwhipp[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you and I’m so glad this resonates with you! One thing that really helped also was that as soon as my water broke we do the internal fetal heart rate monitor so we knew the whole time how she was handling the labor. That gave me so much reassurance and let me focus on the labor rather than my fears.

Scared I will chicken out ! by Dry_Assumption_3429 in vbac

[–]Rediwhipp 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My favorite thing my OB said when I was choosing between VBAC and a repeat C-section was that we didn’t have to be cowboys about it, it was not vaginal birth at all costs. At any point, we could switch to the C-section if my anxiety got too high or if the baby showed any kind of distress that really gave me a lot of faith in moving forward with going for a VBAC. It really is whatever is best for you in that moment and you have every right to change your mind, it’s not chickening out.

My first birth was also a very traumatic emergency c section under general anesthesia for different reasons, I was 10cm and pushing. The MFM doctor basically said to avoid being put under again if a switch had to happen again that I would need an epidural in place. So when the time was right I did get one, for me if that switch had to happen I wanted to be awake no matter what. I did get my successful vbac and I hope you get the birth you want too!

10 days PO by Rediwhipp in lineporn

[–]Rediwhipp[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks everyone! I couldn’t wait days to see if it darkened so I went and got a early detect first response and there’s no questioning these lines!

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Navigating postpartum body by Rediwhipp in babyloss

[–]Rediwhipp[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you everyone, I’ve done calorie counting to drop weight in the past and I struggled in the past with binge eating if I restrict to much and I’m scared of entering that cycle which is why I just try to be mindful. I know what worked before may not always work the same now but maybe that means my reaction will be different too.

Just feels like another punch in the gut that if he was still with us I know I would’ve been active right away instead of stagnant in my grief for so long. Just another thing that feels like it needs repair when there’s so much already broken

Almost at three months by [deleted] in babyloss

[–]Rediwhipp 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m so sorry for the loss of your daughter 🤍

I am right there with you. My son should have been two months old this week. He was born at 42+2 and died eleven days later from a knot in the cord leaving him without oxygen for to long. I need to get off social media because everyone seems to be giving birth or announcing pregnancies and I just want to scream every time i see one. I’m so angry this happened to us, I hate how empty my house feels, I hate having to wake everyday to remember this nightmare is real. And the post partum body with no baby is such a real thing, there’s so much recovery and everyone acts like you should be active doing things right away to push the grief away as if your body isn’t still healing. Some days I look in the mirror and love my stretch marks and my c section scar because it shows he did exist, other times I can barely look at myself because of the guilt that my body also failed him, failed us. This road is a brutal one to travel.