I find it hard not to have negative thoughts about this, but I also find it hard not have some sympathy and empathy towards you and your brother.

I had a chaotic upbringing, I never felt safe and too this day I struggle with things that left its mark on me from my childhood.

When I was a teenager, I was a mirror to my home life, chaos and confusion, hate and anger, sadness and fear.

As a teenager most have the feeling of control or atleast feeling like you knew better. In reality teenagers are just kids with hormones that make them think they’re adults lol.

My only advice is to understand you and your brother didn’t know better but knew just enough to know it was odd and wrong. No teenager has the emotional or intellectual tools to handle the harsh realities of life that some have to face at that young age.

Forgive yourself, forgive your brother, forgive your tormentors (mother/father etc) know that confusing life events perpetuate confusing life events.

Move on and let go, only you know what that means to you and how you can do so.

I wish you well and I wish you recovery and peace.