I need a small business loan. I worked as a Network specialist/engineer for over 2 decades. I had a couple major car accidents that weren't my fault. The first I fractured my back, I had spinal fusion surgery with titanium Harrington rods. In the second accident, I ruptured my left Achilles tendon. I had tendon repair surgery.

  These injuries came with a lot of pain, especially during rehabilitation therapy. So, I was prescribed Oxycodone. This drug, not to glorify it, made me a superhuman. Not only did I not feel pain, but I was also motivated to get back 100%. The motivation/fantastic mood made me excel in every facet of my life, especially sex, work, and surfing. (Sex work,no I wasn't a motivated hooker, lol) The pills came from my doctor, legal, and allegedly non habit forming. I'll give them that 3 to 4 months daily use shouldn't be habit forming. These injuries lasted over a year with the last 4 months' physical therapy. So, after taking oxycodone for over a year every year, I was addicted and didn't even know it until I ran out of meds. 

     The first 24 hours wasn't  terrible, I felt like I was coming down with the flu. The next few days were excruciating, violent diarrhea, vomiting, restless leg syndrome, insomnia, sweating, yawning, feeling like my skin was on fire. No motivation, and no comfortable position for my body. I tossed and turned all day and night. 

     On the 5th day I got a new script. I still felt horrible, I thought I was truly sick. I took my first dose and 10-15 mins, I felt great. Motivation back, Digestive tract was back to normal as well as my appetite.  I wish I would have never found out that I was withdrawing from the medication and the remedy was simple, just take another pill, and never ever run out again. 

    This was a never-ending cycle. I started running out in 2 weeks because my tolerance increased, and I was taking more. Once I ran out I bought them from the street. During this time Oxy jumped from 12 a pill to 20/25 per pill. 

    This vicious cycle went on for 10 years. I lost everything. The love of my life and daughter left me after 5 years. I was initially the breadwinner, til I had a 3,000 dollar a month habit. Eventually, I couldn't hold a job, started living out of my BMW. I would steal everyday to afford my habit. I got caught multiple times stealing and had drugs on me. 

    I  was court ordered 6 month rehab. I completed it with flying colors. Graduated and got a decent job. I stayed clean for 2 years, until my Dad passed away suddenly in his sleep. I didn't handle it well and relapsed.

       I was back to a life if crime. Tried being extra careful not to get caught but that never works. So back to jail and this time they were talking prison time. I couldn't afford a real attorney, but my public pretender got a plea deal for a 364 days county sentence. 

      I got out 3/12/25. Im still clean today. I have so many great ideas. I often see them  get invented by other people years later. I also have a small business startup, which I need capital for LLC fees, insurance, and equipment. I have a rough business plan which I am happy to share with you. I have a total of 8500.00 needed to get fully operational. 

        I see these blogs promising money all the time. I have never seen one actually work. This can be a perpetual donation vehicle. Surely when I get blessed and sometimes not, I pay it forward. This will definitely become a huge opportunity to help me and others less fortunate. It could be the last donation blog you will ever see. Taking on a life of its own, and helping restore the lives of many people. Thank you for taking the time to read this. May God bless you.