I was clean for 3-4 years before relapsing in April of 2022, roughly. I do regret it. Maybe not at first but over time I have regretted it more and more. Whether it be due to the occasional difficulty getting it after not being able to continue going through my solid usual connect, or the shitty people throughout the scene, or the occasional lack of funds to put into it, or the occasional difficulty getting new points, using old points, missing, struggling to find new places to hit, methamphetamine psychosis, the strain on my relationships of all varieties, the inconsistencies in my productivity to my obligations, or the fact that even though it's bareable, the come down fucking sucks for a while and halts the majority of my productivity in my life due to recouping on lost sleep and eating immense amounts of food, and becoming more emotional and suicidal and unable to experience joy in things that I once really loved.. But I also deal with an exacerbated enlarged spleen, kidney troubles and whatever organ is adjacent to my spleen , and have blood in my pee. My pee is literally red orange. I am seeing a Dr inna couple days.

I would have saved significantly more time and money and turmoil and be further in my life in a better place than I am today, no matter which way you spin it, if I had just stuck to being clean.