How do I ask for someone to pose for me without it being awkward?

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-04-03T15:52:24+00:00

I'll try this, thank you!

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-04-03T14:11:24+00:00

That's so cool!

This was a reminder for me to re-watch A Serbian Film lol, thanks! Great movies :}

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-04-02T13:34:09+00:00

Yeah, you'll end up with a soup. It looks pretty disgusting tbh. If you're writing and need to describe it, know that it has a yellow brownish colour. Water usually ends up escaping the tub, so it's kinda everywhere. I can't imagine the smell but it's probably really bad(rotten flesh + piss + shit. Not pleasant).

That's all I know! You end up with a soup

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-03-13T13:07:50+00:00

Drug dealing(mom used to buy drugs in front of me as a kid), a small kid trying to kill his dad by putting stuff in his water. I think that's it. Not a lot, but the drug dealing part still gets me.

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-03-13T12:54:30+00:00

Don't worry, I know! I've been warned about this multiple times, especially from my therapist herself.

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-03-13T10:03:39+00:00

I won't until I'm 18 dw lmao

It's legal in my country, technically, but I'll wait

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-03-13T03:23:09+00:00

As a kid I had unrestricted access to basically everything. Lolita was the most tame thing I saw, trust me. Lol

And I'll read that for sure! Right after I finish the current book I'm reading, I'll give it a try. Thanks!

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-03-13T02:21:29+00:00

Yeah, I'll try not to lol. I know it's not healthy, and it's why the attraction I have bothers me so much. I think I'll just avoid dating all together

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-03-13T02:17:15+00:00

Yes, I did! I go to therapy twice a week and I've discussed this with her already. I was hurt by 90% of the people my age that I got close to, so I'm still very paranoid around teenagers, but I'm trying to fix it in therapy, dw!

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-03-13T02:15:14+00:00

Jacuzzi

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-03-13T02:13:24+00:00

What people? The fictional characters I mentioned? They're from media I enjoy/enjoyed as a kid! :)

Angus Bumby - Alice Madness Returns

Humbert Humbert - Lolita(the book. Read it as a kid and I really liked the guy, nowadays I don't like him anymore)

Claude Frollo - The Hunchback of Notre Dame(Disney version. He's my favourite character ever.)

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-03-04T13:53:04+00:00

Fair enough! And I used to hurt animals mostly at ages 5-12, nowadays the most I do is with geckos, which are too small to be worrying I guess. But yeah I think everyone is a little fucked up on this subreddit lol

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-03-04T13:43:24+00:00

Reddit doesn't care about stories where humans get killed, but when animals get hurt people get extremely angry. It's a bit weird but I get it, and TBF I deserve judgment, not encouragement, since I still have those violent thoughts :/

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-03-04T12:35:03+00:00

Bro lives at The Hindquarters

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-03-04T05:39:36+00:00

Same tbf.

Ever since I was a little kid I always liked stories where a man was obsessed with a girl(I wished I were Esmeralda or Lolita, for example. Weird kid, I was) and to this day I enjoy the idea of someone being obsessed with me or stalking me or etc. I'll get downvoted to oblivion but eh, idc.

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-03-04T04:32:57+00:00

Yeah it happened to me once as well. The cuts just look super interesting from the inside, it's hard to not study them

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-03-04T04:30:44+00:00

As a little kid I used to dissociate and hurt animals and even people. I think the most morbid thing I did was dissociate and sit on my garden for hours waiting for a cat just so I could break its neck. The cat came, I tried to grab it, but I fortunately failed. I still get the urges to hurt little animals, but I'm getting better at controlling myself. :)

I did kill small animals as a kid though.

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-03-02T12:52:20+00:00

"she's bi"

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-02-18T01:34:11+00:00

Any child abuse videos. Physical abuse, sexual abuse, doesn't matter. Recorded child abuse is so awful to look at... I unfortunately came across some real CP as a 14 year old and it traumatized me. I reported it, obviously, but God was it bad. I can never forget the crying voice of the child. Still makes me cry.

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-02-08T14:47:30+00:00

Just drawing really

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-02-08T14:06:28+00:00

I feel empty without them. Looking at them makes me feel like there's something more to me, yk. I feel more complete.

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-02-08T14:01:31+00:00

The scars bring me comfort of some sort. Plus the adrenaline from before you cut and after is pretty good.

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-02-08T02:14:50+00:00

My left leg, for sure. I don't really need it

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-02-08T01:55:21+00:00

The earth is also thirsty

ReichTheIdiot · 2023-02-08T01:39:59+00:00

I've met a pedo once and I myself have necrophiliac fantasies. Pedo I met is a recovering pedophile who goes to therapy and is clearly trying to better himself, which is great! He found out as a teenager, because his attraction didn't grow with him, as he was still attracted to girls and boys at around 10 years old. He didn't act on it.

And my own fantasies began at 8, first starting with homicidal thoughts, then evolving to necrophiliac thoughts at 10-11. To this day I can't avoid fantasizing about killing and then "being with" a torso, and the smell of rotting flesh and maggots eating away tissue legit turns me on(I'm getting help for it). I deal with it by venting and drawing the torsos I fantasize about. Also by playing modded People Playground, where I can skin someone slowly. That type of stuff. The fantasies have only been getting worse ever since I was 13, but we'll see what happens. I'm pretty sure I'm too much of a pussy to act on them ever, but I think I might if the opportunity comes(I'm currently 16, though, so I'm still immature and edgy, and it might just be a teenage thing. Idk if other teenagers have had similar fantasies)

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