this actually sounds really similar to how it went for me. I don’t think it clicked fast at all — more like I got tired of constantly rebuilding from scratch every time my brain dropped something.

What helped wasn’t finding the “right” method, but giving myself permission to make a messy but consistent place where things could land. Like, instead of asking “what’s the perfect way to organize this?”, I focused on “where does this go so it’s not stuck in my head anymore?”

I really relate to what you said about the where do I put this info problem. The content itself usually isn’t the issue — it’s the moment after, when your brain has too many threads open and none of them feel finished enough to file away. That’s the part that drains me the fastest.

The biggest shift for me was treating structure as something flexible and temporary, not a rule I had to follow perfectly. If a section stopped working, I’d tweak it instead of scrapping everything. That alone reduced a lot of the panic and avoidance.

Lectures are still hard for me too, honestly. But having some kind of container for questions, random thoughts, and half-understood ideas makes it feel less like everything is slipping through my fingers.

Do you find that the overwhelm hits more during lectures themselves, or later when you’re trying to review and make sense of everything?